phersper
F*ck psychiatry
- Jun 28, 2023
- 165
Two days ago I tried partial hanging with a belt attached to the door. The first two times I tried I didn't pass out, the third time (in a row) I tried it I had to open the door because SI kicked in and I was super scared or maybe I passed out without noticing and I wrongly open the door knob. This time I think I was partially hanging for 10 seconds or so. But after the third time I fell on the floor and I found myself sitting on the floor with all my body twitching and shaking, in a state of pure confusion. Anyway, since then I feel I lost coordination in my hands/fingers (I can't do the thing where you touch the top of all your fingers with the thumb back and forth) and my left hand is a bit more shaky when I bring the cigarette to my mouth. I feel generally a bit more shaky, less coordinated and a bit dumber.
I suffer from anxiety and a light form of hypocondria (maybe that's why I m stressing out so much). That said, I m worried I m permanently brain damaged even if I believe I only hanged for no more than 10 seconds (the most probable option). I did that three times in a row and all the three times I was at the stage of feeling my head exploding. My neck was sore and in pain for two days after (maybe I damaged the carothid athery?).
I hope I really didn't make my situation worst. I need to be reassured, especially because the third time I'm not completely sure if I passed out or not (I was too confused).
I suffer from anxiety and a light form of hypocondria (maybe that's why I m stressing out so much). That said, I m worried I m permanently brain damaged even if I believe I only hanged for no more than 10 seconds (the most probable option). I did that three times in a row and all the three times I was at the stage of feeling my head exploding. My neck was sore and in pain for two days after (maybe I damaged the carothid athery?).
I hope I really didn't make my situation worst. I need to be reassured, especially because the third time I'm not completely sure if I passed out or not (I was too confused).