tried hanging

[damianshawl]

and failed. back to the drawing board. i think i can do if i really commit, but my heart wasn't in it. i couldn't even cry over the failure. i recently saw this video on twitter about this person discussing how he died once and talked about how peaceful death was and the hardest thing, after experiencing death and being alive again, was trying to live and not commit suicide because of how tempting and peaceful he felt. and that inspired me to go through with it finally, but my heart isn't ready yet. i feel like i'll be able to do it if i experience enough emotional distress, which i had last due to a friend making me feel shitty.

maybe i could've did it last night, but people were home. so i refrained until a few hours ago when i was alone. tried it and just couldn't fully go through with it. i don't know if it was instinct or my heart wasn't ready to fully commit b/c of the pressure in my head. but it's so infuriating i can't just get it over with. maybe i need liquid courage or some form of drug to help push me beyond the limit.

 

[FuneralCry]

Failing the hanging method is what I fear, I find it so horrible how it's this difficult to die, it really should be easier to permanently escape from this existence, I understand why you would feel so frustrated being trapped in that situation.

 

[Bastolex]

and failed. back to the drawing board. i think i can do if i really commit, but my heart wasn't in it. i couldn't even cry over the failure. i recently saw this video on twitter about this person discussing how he died once and talked about how peaceful death was and the hardest thing, after experiencing death and being alive again, was trying to live and not commit suicide because of how tempting and peaceful he felt. and that inspired me to go through with it finally, but my heart isn't ready yet. i feel like i'll be able to do it if i experience enough emotional distress, which i had last due to a friend making me feel shitty.

maybe i could've did it last night, but people were home. so i refrained until a few hours ago when i was alone. tried it and just couldn't fully go through with it. i don't know if it was instinct or my heart wasn't ready to fully commit b/c of the pressure in my head. but it's so infuriating i can't just get it over with. maybe i need liquid courage or some form of drug to help push me beyond the limit.

You should think this through, there's a lot of people on this website who'll blindly encourage you to CBT, bc they think the world is evil and they got it all figured out.
The Video you mentioned is one many who claim they experienced death, please do not trust them. My friend Overdosed once and survived, he stopped taking coke after that bc he was so genuinly terrified of losing his life. Remember that this is your only chance at life.

 

[CW36]

You should think this through, there's a lot of people on this website who'll blindly encourage you to CBT, bc they think the world is evil and they got it all figured out.
The Video you mentioned is one many who claim they experienced death, please do not trust them. My friend Overdosed once and survived, he stopped taking coke after that bc he was so genuinly terrified of losing his life. Remember that this is your only chance at life.

No one encourages people to die here.. You're new here and either naive, or you have an agenda..

 

[Death is my goal]

You should think this through, there's a lot of people on this website who'll blindly encourage you to CBT, bc they think the world is evil and they got it all figured out.
The Video you mentioned is one many who claim they experienced death, please do not trust them. My friend Overdosed once and survived, he stopped taking coke after that bc he was so genuinly terrified of losing his life. Remember that this is your only chance at life.

stfu, you're new here and think you got all the people here figured out. "this is your only chance at life" lmao
what you even doing here? at least go to the recovery section ffs

 

[Bastolex]

stfu, you're new here and think you got all the people here figured out. "this is your only chance at life" lmao
what you even doing here? at least go to the recovery section ffs

You're proving my point, besides don't you think it's a bit hypocritical to give advice to CTB when haven't even succeeded yourself?