Mea Culpa
Mea Culpa, Mea Maxima Culpa, Kyrie Eleison
- Sep 22, 2023
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So my first initial way recently of trying to CTB, was going go to be an OD of Trazodone mixed with alcohol. So I had around 800mg and plenty of alcohol ready.
But... I had second thoughts and talked to my friend about what was happening and what I was planning. And he came down and took the pills away. I was already distancing myself, had actually planned on doing it sooner but the time didnt seem right amongst other things. But I did have a date set, everything ready, letters written (I still have them too) but... the distancing from him and knowing how hurt he was for it made it so hard.
Had I instead gone through with the initial attempt, would it have worked? Would I have needed more traz, more alcohol, copious amounts of both? I saw someone somewhere else say they tried this method but it hadn't worked. But they didnt give any information on how much of what they had.
But... I had second thoughts and talked to my friend about what was happening and what I was planning. And he came down and took the pills away. I was already distancing myself, had actually planned on doing it sooner but the time didnt seem right amongst other things. But I did have a date set, everything ready, letters written (I still have them too) but... the distancing from him and knowing how hurt he was for it made it so hard.
Had I instead gone through with the initial attempt, would it have worked? Would I have needed more traz, more alcohol, copious amounts of both? I saw someone somewhere else say they tried this method but it hadn't worked. But they didnt give any information on how much of what they had.
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