Traveling with N... Plus 1 more shot at healing?

[lanahelp]

Hi all,

I'm going to NYC to try 1 more treatment for my Lyme Disease. At this point, I believe the psych and PTSD and more of the issues. The rootlnessness and pummeling. I don't have much hope which is a problem. I want to bring the N with me. My ex is joining. I made a commitment to treatment for 1-2 months and never to do anything on my ex's watch. I want to bring it with me but also can't risk having it found. Do treatment? Hope/pray? And know that its waiting on the other side?

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best in whatever happens. I hope that things go well.

 

[SpaceCadet]

Hi all,

I'm going to NYC to try 1 more treatment for my Lyme Disease. At this point, I believe the psych and PTSD and more of the issues. The rootlnessness and pummeling. I don't have much hope which is a problem. I want to bring the N with me. My ex is joining. I made a commitment to treatment for 1-2 months and never to do anything on my ex's watch. I want to bring it with me but also can't risk having it found. Do treatment? Hope/pray? And know that its waiting on the other side?

I think it is wise to pursue healing, at least with one more treatment, hopefully that will bring your needed healing, or maybe a change of perspective, and if doesn't work you can decide otherwise. I admire your strenght. Good luck.

 

[SuicidallyCurious]

Are you flying ?

If so I would avoid taking it.

If you are driving or going by train different story

 

[lanahelp]

Are you flying ?

If so I would avoid taking it.

If you are driving or going by train different story

Flying.... Afraid of having this gold-standard-way-out if truly done, confiscated....

 

[nopride86]

I would absolutely not fly with it. If you're in NYC with your ex for the whole 1 - 2 months of treatment, and you don't want to ctb on his watch, you probably wouldn't be using it while you're there anyway. Are you afraid to leave the N at home by itself?

 

[lanahelp]

All of the above.
I want it with me in case I truly want to CTB and can't take anymore. I'll be in nyc. The N here. Once my ex returns and I stay for treatment, N may be found. I'm also worried that if I bring it on the plane—well wrapped and disguised in checked baggage—could it be sniffed out and confiscated?

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

The chances of the N being found with you are much higher than if it stays at home. Just find a place in the house that is really hidden and that you know your ex won't go there.

 

[lanahelp]

Are you flying ?

If so I would avoid taking it.

If you are driving or going by train different story

Thanks for the input. Do we think N can really be "sniffed" out if packed in checked baggage? I have 2 bottles. I ws going to bring one and leave one somewhere very well hidden.... I can't explain the pain anymore. It's some horrific combo of likely Lyme Disease, autoimmune encepathlopathy, mental illness that resulted, and constant suicidal ideations because of severe derpersonalization and derealization. I need to know that I have that out. But if I bring it and its confiscated... Then I'm out. I can't believe I'm even considering suicide having lived a really full and vital life. I just wish all of you here peace and ease.....

 

[SuicidallyCurious]

Thanks for the input. Do we think N can really be "sniffed" out if packed in checked baggage? I have 2 bottles. I ws going to bring one and leave one somewhere very well hidden.... I can't explain the pain anymore. It's some horrific combo of likely Lyme Disease, autoimmune encepathlopathy, mental illness that resulted, and constant suicidal ideations because of severe derpersonalization and derealization. I need to know that I have that out. But if I bring it and its confiscated... Then I'm out. I can't believe I'm even considering suicide having lived a really full and vital life. I just wish all of you here peace and ease.....

Who knows but the US and global airport security are full of angry and sexually frustrated men who are out to get you. They want to bust you for their personal satisfaction because it's a way they can knock another man down a peg. I've watched so many times the TSA barking unnecessarily at people for no reason.

One time I was at a foreign airport and the guy searched me for drugs . Im always searched for drugs because I look the part and fly often to high risk countries . I have never trafficked in illegal drugs in my life , I've never even purchased them for myself. The guy tears my luggage in and out and when it's clear I have nothing he makes a comment like "welcome to our country and good luck to see your girlfriend here ". Why remark on this ? I don't have a girlfriend and why would he assume that ? Is it because he is missing one he figures I've got one ?

In every airport in the world it's always angry guys and losers working these petty tyrant authority figure jobs. I would never try to move anything through an airport no matter how small and how low the penalty

 

[WanderingWater]

Hi all,

I'm going to NYC to try 1 more treatment for my Lyme Disease. At this point, I believe the psych and PTSD and more of the issues. The rootlnessness and pummeling. I don't have much hope which is a problem. I want to bring the N with me. My ex is joining. I made a commitment to treatment for 1-2 months and never to do anything on my ex's watch. I want to bring it with me but also can't risk having it found. Do treatment? Hope/pray? And know that its waiting on the other side?

FYI...it will be found.

Thanks for the input. Do we think N can really be "sniffed" out if packed in checked baggage? I have 2 bottles. I ws going to bring one and leave one somewhere very well hidden.... I can't explain the pain anymore. It's some horrific combo of likely Lyme Disease, autoimmune encepathlopathy, mental illness that resulted, and constant suicidal ideations because of severe derpersonalization and derealization. I need to know that I have that out. But if I bring it and its confiscated... Then I'm out. I can't believe I'm even considering suicide having lived a really full and vital life. I just wish all of you here peace and ease.....

Thanks for the input. Do we think N can really be "sniffed" out if packed in checked baggage? I have 2 bottles. I ws going to bring one and leave one somewhere very well hidden.... I can't explain the pain anymore. It's some horrific combo of likely Lyme Disease, autoimmune encepathlopathy, mental illness that resulted, and constant suicidal ideations because of severe derpersonalization and derealization. I need to know that I have that out. But if I bring it and its confiscated... Then I'm out. I can't believe I'm even considering suicide having lived a really full and vital life. I just wish all of you here peace and ease.....

Not only, confiscated... potential charges as well.

 

[_Seeking]

The way luggage gets lost, I wouldn't chance it. If you are really intent, maybe you could FedEx it to where you are staying.

 

[NotSureToEndure]

It's quite easy for liquids to be picked up on scanners isn't it? I definitely wouldn't chance it.

Good luck with your treatment though, hopefully you won't ever need that N.

 

[lanahelp]

The way luggage gets lost, I wouldn't chance it. If you are really intent, maybe you could FedEx it to where you are staying.

I hear you, all. Thank you... Traveling from FLL-NYC (US). Charges? Yikes? I'm just trying to find the bst and separate hiding spots at my ex's given that I cannot take the bottles. I was hoping to heal and find life again from my treatment and return to beloved NYC. I'm out of hope and feel a safety knowing the N is with me. Fed Ex seems even more risky. The sender packaged it very discetely and used UPS from Mexico. What a decision. The ultimate. I am set to leave on Monday.

 

[headwood]

I wish I could help. If I lived in FL I'd offer hold onto the N for you to keep it safe and secure until you returned from NYC. I hope you can find a good spot to stash it at your ex's place.

 

[lanahelp]

I wish I could help. If I lived in FL I'd offer hold onto the N for you to keep it safe and secure until you returned from NYC. I hope you can find a good spot to stash it at your ex's place.

And I wish I could get it to you without fear of confiscation. That would offer me so much security and peace of mind, even to focus on the potential of healing. Stay strong. I'm "with" you... And thank you

 

[its-about-time]

Definitely don't fly with it. Huge risk of it being found. Police don't just confiscate illegal items, they charge the people trying to transport them. I'm sorry, I know you want to bring it with you, it's just a really bad idea in my opinion. I vote keeping it in a safe space at home. It'll be there for you. It might help you give your 1-2 months of treatment a good decent shot too, if that's what your plan is.

 

[lanahelp]

Definitely don't fly with it. Huge risk of it being found. Police don't just confiscate illegal items, they charge the people trying to transport them. I'm sorry, I know you want to bring it with you, it's just a really bad idea in my opinion. I vote keeping it in a safe space at home. It'll be there for you. It might help you give your 1-2 months of treatment a good decent shot too, if that's what your plan is.

Thank you so much!

 

[luke_skywalker]

So did u decide not to bring it with u? @lanahelp

 

[lanahelp]

And I wish I could get it to you without fear of confiscation. That would offer me so much security and peace of mind, even to focus on the potential of healing. Stay strong. I'm "with" you... And thank you

And I wish I could get it to you without fear of confiscation. That would offer me so much security and peace of mind, even to focus on the potential of healing. Stay strong. I'm "with" you... And thank you

So did u decide not to bring it with u? @lanahelp

I didn't bring it with me….

 

[WanderingWater]

I didn't bring it with me….

How's was re*entry? Hope your re*connecting, centered.
GoodSpirits?

I've been cravin' food from my favorite Diner. I, even dreamed ... The walk from the Guggenheim to the Diner! I even bought flowers on the way. Too, funny!

 

[lanahelp]

Glad it brought back good memories.

The treatment is kicking my ass and I want to give up more than ever. I will likely do one more and, perhaps, go back to FL and find peace. I can't take the symptoms of depression, derealization, and constant panic anymore. Nothing looks real.

Is N guaranteed to work? I have 2 bottles.