Story Trapped yet again

[telro]

My parents got in between me and my plans to CTB yet again. I've realized that at this point it's gonna be pretty much impossible to CTB as long as I live with them, they know me too well and we spend too much time together for me to hide everything. They also decided to search my room, which isn't very large, and eventually found my SN. I feel trapped now.

However, I was prepared for this to happen and I managed to talk the hospital staff into admitting me every weekday, so nothing stationary. I didn't want to go into a psych ward.

Now it seems that I'll have to spend at least a few more years in this world, which honestly hurts. I'll try recovery yet again… I'm tired of everything though. I was so close this time.

 

[deomlez]

I don t know what to say, except you will find here support...

 

[quwroflucilfer3]

So strange to me that society deliberately tries to keep those who suffer alive for as long as possible. It's cruel and unusual. I hope you can stay strong and live the most peaceful life possible.

 

[Fabi_2312]

Im happy, you consider recovery. Still I hope you find peace in your decision, either through ctb or recovery.

 

[Death is my goal]

So strange to me that society deliberately tries to keep those who suffer alive for as long as possible. It's cruel and unusual. I hope you can stay strong and live the most peaceful life possible.

i mean there's nothing really strange about it, it's very normal thing for parents to do.

 

[day]

Happy for you to find enough strength in recovery.. very envious of you for that. I can't imagine how I'd feel. Best wishes OP.

 

[telro]

Happy for you to find enough strength in recovery.. very envious of you for that. I can't imagine how I'd feel. Best wishes OP.

Thanks!

I don't really want to do recovery, but for now I feel it's best to cooperate rather than resist. CTB really isn't an option for me right now anyways anymore and I don't want to put myself in an even worse spot than before by resisting treatment.

It's horrible that I have to spend more time in this world when I was so close to reaching my way out, but I'm trying to stay calm about it. It helps that I was mentally prepared for an intervention.

 

[day]

Thanks!

I don't really want to do recovery, but for now I feel it's best to cooperate rather than resist. CTB really isn't an option for me right now anyways anymore and I don't want to put myself in an even worse spot than before by resisting treatment.

It's horrible that I have to spend more time in this world when I was so close to reaching my way out, but I'm trying to stay calm about it. It helps that I was mentally prepared for an intervention.

I'm so sorry things didn't work out but damn do I think you're so strong. Either way it goes I want you to know I hope you find peace and happiness OP.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I'm really sorry that your parents thwarted your plan. I can imagine how tough that is for you. I really hope you can find a way to cope with your life and your plans to recover and I hope even more that your parents will support you in the best way they can after they caused you so much more pain not accepting your true wish. I hope you can find peace!

 

[FuneralCry]

I find it so inhumane how other people try to interfere in suicide plans, it's like they forget that we are all just going to die anyway and I get that it's so awful feeling trapped here, forcing people to suffer is just so incredibly cruel and they shouldn't have any right to do such a thing.