Venting Trapped at home/eternal suicide watch

[whybother2002]

After my OD attempt 2 months ago, I'm in a severe suicide watch. I understand my parents' worries, but their religious motives make me so angry. "Cheer up!", "maybe if you had faith...", "so many people want to live!". I have SN in my cart to buy it with my own money, but if they get a hold of the package before me it's all over. My father already told me if I try ctb again he will lost respect for me or something. I'm scared that by the time I'm finally able to buy SN the congress here will ban it ir something — with a thunderous applause by the media and nuts christian population. I'm wondering if it's worth the possible discussion and humiliation that might happen, but the fact that I can't be trusted to receive a package without explanation or take a bus and get the SN there.

Isn't it ironic that we are supposed to get better first before we may ctb?

 

[sanrioslayer]

Dont ctb now buddy move as far away u fucking can from your parents, who knows maybe your life will be better then and u can decide what youre gonna do from there. Its worth a try isnt it?
Sometimes is not our own fault we're mentally ill, i feel like a lot of times its the people we surround us with..i cant speak in your case but maybe cutting off toxic people around u can change your perspective on life.
Sorry for rant, and either way i hope you find peace and im sorry u have to deal with this

 

[calicocat07]

I understand how you feel. My parents are that way too, my mom won't even acknowledge my depression! And says I chose this life spiritually! Everything is do is my own fault because "spiritually" i chose it or some bs about God. Honestly i hope if you get a chance that everything will get better once your out of the house. When i was alone from family i found myself doing better. Can I ask where you get SN from? Am I able to ask that? I'm still a little new to all this lol. I've been wanting to find a quick way to go.

 

[whybother2002]

I understand how you feel. My parents are that way too, my mom won't even acknowledge my depression! And says I chose this life spiritually! Everything is do is my own fault because "spiritually" i chose it or some bs about God. Honestly i hope if you get a chance that everything will get better once your out of the house. When i was alone from family i found myself doing better. Can I ask where you get SN from? Am I able to ask that? I'm still a little new to all this lol. I've been wanting to find a quick way to go.

In Brazil it's still pretty easy to find!

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand feeling so trapped in this torturous existence, all I want is to never suffer again, I see so much cruelty in how the option to just painlessly cease existing in peace is denied, I wish you the best.