Hello everyone, I am 47 years old and live in Europe. Due to strong opiates, I am unable to actively participate in life.
I used to have a fulfilling life, but that is long gone. For six years, I have been tormented by terrible pain throughout
my entire body, and it has taken almost everything from me. Every movement I make hurts. I am at home all the time,
and my only contact with the outside world is the internet. I only go out when I have to run an urgent errand or go to
the hospital. I just want to get in touch with people who really understand what I am going through. I no longer have a
family. My relatives live far away, and my friends, who used to always be there for me, have gradually distanced
themselves from me. They don't get in touch anymore because I can't do anything, and they find it difficult to integrate
me into their lives. I understand that, but it still hurts. I feel like a living wreck. I am useless..
I found SS and would like to be accepted. My only wish is to find like minded people with whom I can discuss things,
share my fears and worries, and who will listen to me without judging me. Here I have found something I have been
missing for so long: A community that could accept me for who I am. A place where I can not only talk about my pain,
but also be human again. I wrote this text for my registration and I would like to share it with you too.
I haven't set an exact date for Ctb yet, but it won't be long now because this life no longer makes sense.
I'm looking forward to a new life and hope that everything will be better than it is now.
I used to have a fulfilling life, but that is long gone. For six years, I have been tormented by terrible pain throughout
my entire body, and it has taken almost everything from me. Every movement I make hurts. I am at home all the time,
and my only contact with the outside world is the internet. I only go out when I have to run an urgent errand or go to
the hospital. I just want to get in touch with people who really understand what I am going through. I no longer have a
family. My relatives live far away, and my friends, who used to always be there for me, have gradually distanced
themselves from me. They don't get in touch anymore because I can't do anything, and they find it difficult to integrate
me into their lives. I understand that, but it still hurts. I feel like a living wreck. I am useless..
I found SS and would like to be accepted. My only wish is to find like minded people with whom I can discuss things,
share my fears and worries, and who will listen to me without judging me. Here I have found something I have been
missing for so long: A community that could accept me for who I am. A place where I can not only talk about my pain,
but also be human again. I wrote this text for my registration and I would like to share it with you too.
I haven't set an exact date for Ctb yet, but it won't be long now because this life no longer makes sense.
I'm looking forward to a new life and hope that everything will be better than it is now.
