Transgender Thread

[neardeath]

Just wanted to make a thread for trans people. I'm trans too (ftm) and want to kill myself but my survival instinct is annoyingly strong and now i'm just waiting for the courage to kill myself. i mostly want to die because i will never find love. what about you guys? also if you all have any tips on getting the courage to finally ctb please give advice, thanks

 

[Dot]

Workng on trasngendr spport megathred atm -- wll post whn = rdy

 

[momdontcryplease]

It seems there is a lot of trans people on here. I think I must have been a terrible person in my past life (like a war criminal) for me to be born all broken like this (I'm exact opposite of you, mtf).

 

[neardeath]

@momdontcryplease yeah i think the same as well. i feel like i'm being punished and like i deserve it. life is hell and in conjunction with being fucked relationship wise because im trans, im also black and autistic. im a burden to everyone around me and i cant help being so depressed because no one wants to be with someone like that.

 

[toro☂]

It seems there is a lot of trans people on here. I think I must have been a terrible person in my past life (like a war criminal) for me to be born all broken like this (I'm exact opposite of you, mtf).

I started out thinking i was mtf but feel more NB now, such a constant struggle. Feels like my past life was horrible too

 

[momdontcryplease]

I just wish that I could somehow stop causing pain to others. It's so frustrating that even ctb will cause mental pain to other people... I just wish I could have never even existed to begin with.

 

[toro☂]

I just wish that I could somehow stop causing pain to others. It's so frustrating that even ctb will cause mental pain to other people... I just wish I could have never even existed to begin with.

Yes exactly i want to ctb but the mental pain for others and my survival instinct thwart my hopes

 

[neardeath]

@Dot I cant view your profile (or anyone elses), it says i dont have permission. is that a glitch? could u send me the page once its done (unless u know how to fix it)?

 

[momdontcryplease]

I am praying for an accident or even better, maybe I can somehow meet an evil police officer and they will hate crime me. That way my family can get some money from the lawsuit, the bad cop will be locked up, and I will be dead!

 

[neardeath]

I just wish that I could somehow stop causing pain to others. It's so frustrating that even ctb will cause mental pain to other people... I just wish I could have never even existed to begin with.

I feel the same way. I am trying to find the most painless, least traumatizing death state for someone to find my body in. thinking about doing the night night method and locking my door and putting a note telling them that im dead and to get the coroners to come so they don't have to see my body. also making sure my friends know none of its their fault and its all mine.

 

[toro☂]

I am praying for an accident or even better, maybe I can somehow meet an evil police officer and they will hate crime me. That way my family can get some money from the lawsuit, the bad cop will be locked up, and I will be dead!

that sounds like a great scenario honestly, i wouldnt mind that either

 

[neardeath]

I am praying for an accident or even better, maybe I can somehow meet an evil police officer and they will hate crime me. That way my family can get some money from the lawsuit, the bad cop will be locked up, and I will be dead!

yeah ive also definitely thought of suicide by cop for me as well. easy for me since im black. and it could inspire positive change. but yeah for me the cop would not get locked up or prosecuted lol

 

[toro☂]

I feel the same way. I am trying to find the most painless, least traumatizing death state for someone to find my body in. thinking about doing the night night method and locking my door and putting a note telling them that im dead and to get the coroners to come so they don't have to see my body. also making sure my friends know none of its their fault and its all mine.

oh shoot i forgot about coroners i need to add that to my note, i dont want someone seeing my body if they dont have to. Also definitely nobodys fault but mine

 

[neardeath]

can just pretend to have a gun and theyll kill me lol

 

[toro☂]

yeah ive also definitely thought of suicide by cop for me as well. easy for me since im black. and it could inspire positive change. but yeah for me the cop would not get locked up or prosecuted lol

such a stupid reality, life truly is awful

 

[EmmaD]

Being evil to trans people is seen as socially acceptable.. just check out the comments on Facebook when there's a post about a trans person! People STILL think they're being clever spouting this 'real women aren't men' shit.. but they should try having a conversation with a teenager who is trans or NB and hear first hand the abuse they get, probably leading to self-harm and being suicidal..It's a nasty world.

 

[Dot]

@Dot I cant view your profile (or anyone elses), it says i dont have permission. is that a glitch? could u send me the page once its done (unless u know how to fix it)?

U mght need 2 pst sme more 2 opn up xtra permissns

 

[neardeath]

such a stupid reality, life truly is awful

doesn't really matter to me anyways i'll be dead

U mght need 2 pst sme more 2 opn up xtra permissns

oh ok thank you

 

[momdontcryplease]

It's such a dilemma... if I stay alive, I will be causing pain to my parents. My mom will probably die with her eyes open because she will be worried about me. If I ctb, I will ALSO cause pain... I don't see a way out without pain! I guess I have to choose the option with less pain but it's so hard.

 

[neardeath]

It's such a dilemma... if I stay alive, I will be causing pain to my parents. My mom will probably die with her eyes open because she will be worried about me. If I ctb, I will ALSO cause pain... I don't see a way out without pain! I guess I have to choose the option with less pain but it's so hard.

I think your parents definitely would rather have you alive if they're worrying about you so much. My parents aren't the worst and don't want me dead anyways but I'm suffering too much to live for everyone else. I need to find a way to end the pain

 

[GasMonkey]

It seems there is a lot of trans people on here.

That's natural coz Trans have a HUGE suicide/attempted suicide rate.

 

[momdontcryplease]

Maybe... but just me existing is also causing them great stress. Not just mental but financial stress. If I ctb I would at least help cut down on costs.

Yeah I really didn't want to contribute to that statistic of trans suicidal rates but I can feel the need getting stronger every day.

 

[neardeath]

Maybe... but just me existing is also causing them great stress. Not just mental but financial stress. If I ctb I would at least help cut down on costs.

Yeah I really didn't want to contribute to that statistic of trans suicidal rates but I can feel the need getting stronger every day.

I guess I kinda gave up on everything. I don't care if I contribute to a statistic and I don't care if people make fun of my death after I die. I feel like I deserve it all and more and (again) I'll be dead so nothing will matter anyways. My biggest fear about dying now is fear that hell or something like it exists and I have to keep existing after death