Method Train suicide protocol?

[3FailedAttemptss]

Well, I was planning on killing myself with SN, but my mother threw it away cause my fucking family knows I'm suicidal and I just want to die >w< But, um, they can't take the trains away, so that's kind of my only method QwQ

I was thinking, of a railway CTB protocol:

• Remove the sim card from my phone
• Bike down to an open stretch of railway
• Listen to loud breakcore I've downloaded with ANC on
• Wait until the train comes close
• Lay down on the railways facing away from the train
• Place your neck on the railway so you know it'll be severed
• Blast that music until you're gone.

Is there anything I'm missing here? Or anything that can make a railway suicide more comfortable? Or are there other methods I should look into?

I really hoped to die w/ SN T-T

 

[barelyholdingon]

I've always thought hiding behind something and then jumping in front of the train as it passes would be better. That way your entire body gets obliterated. If you lay there with your head on the rails and fall asleep you could shift or move in a way where you get injured but stay alive as a vegetable. Imagine that existence for a second

 

[3FailedAttemptss]

I've always thought hiding behind something and then jumping in front of the train as it passes would be better. That way your entire body gets obliterated. If you lay there with your head on the rails and fall asleep you could shift or move in a way where you get injured but stay alive as a vegetable. Imagine that existence for a second

I believe sitters/liers have the highest fatality rate, I think jumping results in higher chance of complications. But yes, the thought of becoming a vegetable is scary.

 

[getoutgirl]

Hey first of all sorry to hear you are still suffering like this. I've seen you around for a long time and you've clearly gone through a lot this year alone. Sucks I'm sorry hugs :(

As to the question, I also considered this method. There are details yeah.
Depends on the type of train. If it's not a highspeed train that lowers the fatality substantially.
Also depends on the timing, positioning and the way it hits you. The train can lower its speed if its sees you. If so it might still hit you (as slowing down to a full stop is hard unless they see you with a lot of distance), and u might still die of it, but it wouldn't be quick nor painless... and if you survived that, it definetly wouldn't be in a painless state at all. So that's important.
oh also check out if it's an urban train they sometimes have an electrified third rail and you don't wanna add electrocution to the whole thing, avoid.
It's a method with good fatality in the right conditions (like 1 in 10 survival), but also risk of agonising slow death if stuff goes wrong.
my main gripe with it is that it involves others. And though I get the desperation to die, ethically it is far from good. It causes PTSD to most train drivers and trauma to passengers or whoever sees it. Cos they are Very gory. So that's not great. Can't recommend at all.
For SI... yeah very little, it is a pretty scary way to go. Breakcore full volume maybe, but there would be a lot more sensations going on there in the tracks other than hearing. not great

Again I really can't recommend u do this. At all. I'd rather you didn't. How to go about not doing so and making you feel any better I have no idea. Again I'm sorry. But I hope somehow you get to be okayish these days. Big hugs <3<3

 

[Zardoz]

Trains have drivers. They are looking at the line ahead of them. They will see you. They will be unable to stop in time. They will feel you go under the train.
They will likely suffer long term mental illness and PTSD as a result, affecting their personal life and family. They may never work again.
Trains are not autonomous 'things'. Humans operate them. Please think of these people if you must choose this method (you can probably tell my opinion is please don't).

 

[3FailedAttemptss]

Hey first of all sorry to hear you are still suffering like this. I've seen you around for a long time and you've clearly gone through a lot this year alone. Sucks I'm sorry hugs :(

As to the question, I also considered this method. There are details yeah.
Depends on the type of train. If it's not a highspeed train that lowers the fatality substantially.
Also depends on the timing, positioning and the way it hits you. The train can lower its speed if its sees you. If so it might still hit you (as slowing down to a full stop is hard unless they see you with a lot of distance), and u might still die of it, but it wouldn't be quick nor painless... and if you survived that, it definetly wouldn't be in a painless state at all. So that's important.
oh also check out if it's an urban train they sometimes have an electrified third rail and you don't wanna add electrocution to the whole thing, avoid.
It's a method with good fatality in the right conditions (like 1 in 10 survival), but also risk of agonising slow death if stuff goes wrong.
my main gripe with it is that it involves others. And though I get the desperation to die, ethically it is far from good. It causes PTSD to most train drivers and trauma to passengers or whoever sees it. Cos they are Very gory. So that's not great. Can't recommend at all.
For SI... yeah very little, it is a pretty scary way to go. Breakcore full volume maybe, but there would be a lot more sensations going on there in the tracks other than hearing. not great

Again I really can't recommend u do this. At all. I'd rather you didn't. How to go about not doing so and making you feel any better I have no idea. Again I'm sorry. But I hope somehow you get to be okayish these days. Big hugs <3<3

Thank you, genuinely thank you QwQ It's just— I'm so desperate. I don't know what to do, I just know that I want to die and it's been 10 months, and I'm just being kept alive!! I've been in seven different psych wards… I've spent the majority of my 2025 locked up. My family knows I'm suicidal, and they even know what sodium nitrite is. Every time I order it they fucking throw it away before I can even touch it. I'm just desperate I don't know what to do, because I'm not getting better— I'm just not. I've tried: electroshock, therapy, antipsychotics, several antidepressants, I've tried other drugs to strengthen the antipsychotics and antidepressants and nothing's helping!!!!

But thank you for this message. Maybe I was being a little too desperate. I've tried— I've actually tried to kill myself with a train once before, but that ended up in all trains in the area being slowed down, and I had 20 police officers and 6 different squad cars looking for me. So maybe it's not a smart choice. I don't mean to sound like a cold person but I don't care about causing PTSD or trauma— I really dont. I just want out. But I feel like you laid out some good arguments, and I think it's a really, really, really uncomfortable way to die.

But I'm just running out of options. So I don't know what to do. I'm struggling to find reasons to live and nothing's helping. I'm just desperate.

 

[Quiabo1]

I was considering a train protocol too. Near my house there's a railway where 9~12 freight trains pass daily. They aren't fast nor lightweight trains, they are that slow and heavy kind (iron ore cargo) with 150~200 wagons each, so a complete stop takes a lot of time and distance. I was thinking about the risk of not being instantly killed and agonizing for some minutes being completely aware of the terrible pain if anything went wrong, but as getoutgirl said, this method is pretty gory and scary, not only for the person trying but to anyone involved: drivers, police officers...
Differently from you 3FailedAttemptss, I didn't think about cutting my neck, but having my brain crushed instead. Unfortunately only veterinary clinics are allowed to have N in my country (that would be my perfect solution). I also thought of getting some SN some time ago but got scared it can take too much time for me to go unconscious...
When despair grows too much I try venting and talking to ChatGPT or just cry against my pillow with doors locked so I don't do anything that will turn me into a sad vegetable on a bed for months or years of pain.

 

[nner]

I was considering a train protocol too. Near my house there's a railway where 9~12 freight trains pass daily. They aren't fast nor lightweight trains, they are that slow and heavy kind (iron ore cargo) with 150~200 wagons each, so a complete stop takes a lot of time and distance. I was thinking about the risk of not being instantly killed and agonizing for some minutes being completely aware of the terrible pain if anything went wrong, but as getoutgirl said, this method is pretty gory and scary, not only for the person trying but to anyone involved: drivers, police officers...
Differently from you 3FailedAttemptss, I didn't think about cutting my neck, but having my brain crushed instead. Unfortunately only veterinary clinics are allowed to have N in my country (that would be my perfect solution). I also thought of getting some SN some time ago but got scared it can take too much time for me to go unconscious...
When despair grows too much I try venting and talking to ChatGPT or just cry against my pillow with doors locked so I don't do anything that will turn me into a sad vegetable on a bed for months or years of pain.

I've considered it a lot of times. I have an spot near my house where there's a hole in the wall, and I'm even noting the times of the cargo trains. But I have 2 cons: SI, with the noise of trains and all, maybe I couldn't bear the noise, and it could be worse if it horns or something. And the second con: my body would be in a very bad state for my family. They would look for me and it would be very very traumatic. So, I take it as a desperate method, but not the main one, mainly for this reason.

 

[painecrotic]

I've always thought that train methods are risky and messy too given what I have seen on the internet. Also if you are unlucky, you might actually still be concious for long enough. Not sure that's everyone's cup of tea

 

[copioushopelessness]

Thank you, genuinely thank you QwQ It's just— I'm so desperate. I don't know what to do, I just know that I want to die and it's been 10 months, and I'm just being kept alive!! I've been in seven different psych wards… I've spent the majority of my 2025 locked up. My family knows I'm suicidal, and they even know what sodium nitrite is. Every time I order it they fucking throw it away before I can even touch it. I'm just desperate I don't know what to do, because I'm not getting better— I'm just not. I've tried: electroshock, therapy, antipsychotics, several antidepressants, I've tried other drugs to strengthen the antipsychotics and antidepressants and nothing's helping!!!!

But thank you for this message. Maybe I was being a little too desperate. I've tried— I've actually tried to kill myself with a train once before, but that ended up in all trains in the area being slowed down, and I had 20 police officers and 6 different squad cars looking for me. So maybe it's not a smart choice. I don't mean to sound like a cold person but I don't care about causing PTSD or trauma— I really dont. I just want out. But I feel like you laid out some good arguments, and I think it's a really, really, really uncomfortable way to die.

But I'm just running out of options. So I don't know what to do. I'm struggling to find reasons to live and nothing's helping. I'm just desperate.

Thank you, genuinely thank you QwQ It's just— I'm so desperate. I don't know what to do, I just know that I want to die and it's been 10 months, and I'm just being kept alive!! I've been in seven different psych wards… I've spent the majority of my 2025 locked up. My family knows I'm suicidal, and they even know what sodium nitrite is. Every time I order it they fucking throw it away before I can even touch it. I'm just desperate I don't know what to do, because I'm not getting better— I'm just not. I've tried: electroshock, therapy, antipsychotics, several antidepressants, I've tried other drugs to strengthen the antipsychotics and antidepressants and nothing's helping!!!!

But thank you for this message. Maybe I was being a little too desperate. I've tried— I've actually tried to kill myself with a train once before, but that ended up in all trains in the area being slowed down, and I had 20 police officers and 6 different squad cars looking for me. So maybe it's not a smart choice. I don't mean to sound like a cold person but I don't care about causing PTSD or trauma— I really dont. I just want out. But I feel like you laid out some good arguments, and I think it's a really, really, really uncomfortable way to die.

But I'm just running out of options. So I don't know what to do. I'm struggling to find reasons to live and nothing's helping. I'm just desperate.

Thank you, genuinely thank you QwQ It's just— I'm so desperate. I don't know what to do, I just know that I want to die and it's been 10 months, and I'm just being kept alive!! I've been in seven different psych wards… I've spent the majority of my 2025 locked up. My family knows I'm suicidal, and they even know what sodium nitrite is. Every time I order it they fucking throw it away before I can even touch it. I'm just desperate I don't know what to do, because I'm not getting better— I'm just not. I've tried: electroshock, therapy, antipsychotics, several antidepressants, I've tried other drugs to strengthen the antipsychotics and antidepressants and nothing's helping!!!!

But thank you for this message. Maybe I was being a little too desperate. I've tried— I've actually tried to kill myself with a train once before, but that ended up in all trains in the area being slowed down, and I had 20 police officers and 6 different squad cars looking for me. So maybe it's not a smart choice. I don't mean to sound like a cold person but I don't care about causing PTSD or trauma— I really dont. I just want out. But I feel like you laid out some good arguments, and I think it's a really, really, really uncomfortable way to die.

But I'm just running out of options. So I don't know what to do. I'm struggling to find reasons to live and nothing's helping. I'm just desperate.

I'm sorry for the pain you're going through. I bet the antidepressants and antipsychotics made you much more depressed. Medication made me immeasurably more depressed.

 

[3FailedAttemptss]

I'm sorry for the pain you're going through. I bet the antidepressants and antipsychotics made you much more depressed. Medication made me immeasurably more depressed.

My antidepressants have done nothing for me— not even electroshock helped, but I don't think I'm a depressed person, I'm just fucked in the head. My antipsychotics have helped a little bit with my psychotic symptoms. But no life changing effects QwQ I wish I could be fixed but I have given up.

 

[MyShadow]

Here are the facts of this method

• Your odds of success are very limited.
• Survival will likely result in permanent injury, i.e. paralysis, brain damage, etc.
• You will permanently traumatize the person driving the train and anyone who witnesses your death.

Why do you feel that you you need such a grisly, terrible death?

 

[Thatdude]

Why take your sim card out?

I'm also not a fan of this method. There is a lot of risk. Like if I get kicked out I will likely do this. But that is because many other options are off the table and it really comes down to playing fogger on a highway, this, or drowning or the like. This between them has a far more likely.

I'm looking at exit bag.

 

[3FailedAttemptss]

Here are the facts of this method

• Your odds of success are very limited.
• Survival will likely result in permanent injury, i.e. paralysis, brain damage, etc.
• You will permanently traumatize the person driving the train and anyone who witnesses your death.

Why do you feel that you you need such a grisly, terrible death?

From what I've seen, given optimal circumstances (fast moving train) the success rate should be quite high. You are right though, survival will only increase ones suffering tremendously— you really dont wanna fuck up. I just cannot understand why one would care about traumatizing others, it's suicide, you die.. after death nothing matters, you're kinda not around to deal with consequences. Lastly, I like the idea of a violent suicide— it's like one last act of self-destruction taking out my frustrations on a body that's caused me so much pain.

Why take your sim card out?

I'm also not a fan of this method. There is a lot of risk. Like if I get kicked out I will likely do this. But that is because many other options are off the table and it really comes down to playing fogger on a highway, this, or drowning or the like. This between them has a far more likely.

I'm looking at exit bag.

I'd remove my sim card cause my family know I'm suicidal and I've even had a previous railway suicide attempt, so they'd call the police if they saw me on find my.

 

[AuraByte]

I completely understand you are suffering and wish you peace, but please consider a different method.

A family member of mine used to be a train driver, and someone ctb by jumping in front of their train.

It really, really fucked them up.

Let's try not to inflict our pain onto others in a traumatic way.