Torture

[jussrav]

I am literally being tortured by my mind. My day consists of not sleeping waking up hourly this has been going on for 2 months. Then some days I have long covid symptoms like a virus attacking my eye not letting me sleep at all keeping me awake. I have a brain tumour that won't kill me. I dobt enjoy life cant watch tv due to my mental health I cant seem to keep moving about get lazy sit there and get worse. I made a bad mistake during covid and wrecked my whole life. My past haunts me. I can't move on. Mental health teams don't help me at all. Its not going to get better. I was thinking just to hang myself as I see no hope I dobt know what hope is. I've lost my happiness, my laugh, my confidence, no job and my relationships. I used to be so happy but thats all a distant memory. I try to end it by hanging but it's not easy shall I take sleeping pills. There is no point being in a world where everyone is loving life and I am hating it.

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds really horrible what you have to endure, it must be so torturous, it's certainly such a hellish existence where people have to suffer so much. But anyway I wish you the best, I hate how it's so difficult to die.

 

[SVEN]

Now you are here, you'll find that there is a world full of people who are much more like yourself than one full of people who love life.
If you should decide to ctb, I wouldn't suggest using sleeping pills, as overdoses are very seldom effective.
Give yourself a while to research methods on the group whilst you consider your options.
Best wishes, be kind to yourself and go well.

 

[jussrav]

Now you are here, you'll find that there is a world full of people who are much more like yourself than one full of people who love life.
If you should decide to ctb, I wouldn't suggest using sleeping pills, as overdoses are very seldom effective.
Give yourself a while to research methods on the group whilst you consider your options.
Best wishes, be kind to yourself and go well.

Sleeping pills with what. I dont know if those can do much . I can't get sleeping pills from my gp.

 

[dmdmdm]

I'm sorry for you. It sounds awful. If you actually want to CTB try to find a reliable method before things get even worse health wise if you somehow survived. Good luck with whatever you decide.