Venting Tornado.

[cylus46]

Im sick of it. One week or one day being on cloud 9, unstoppable, feeling on top of the world, feeling jacked, feeling handsome, feeling sexy and smart then within a few days or even a day feel ugly,small, stupid, a burden, hopeless.

I suspect I have bpd. I went to therapy they said it seems tk be a possibility but I stopped going before I could get any official diagnosis but its definitely there. I hate self diagnosing but I try. I really try to be happy and it works...then it just stops and im upset and angry and sad for seemingly no reason. Even small things thrown my mind into a frenzy.

Im so exhausted. This is so exhuasting. I want to die i wish I had the balls to die. Im a coward. Im sorry.

 

[countingthedays1211]

Well if you do have bpd, that is something that people do get help with and see treatments for. There may be some hope for you to not feel so bad.

 

[cylus46]

Well if you do have bpd, that is something that people do get help with and see treatments for. There may be some hope for you to not feel so bad.

I do try with therapy since my college provides it but I haven't gotten medicated. I was when I was younger but it was for adhd and it make me try to kill myself