hi all. just wanted to share my experience. last night I attempted sn. I fasted all day. didn't have meto or ibuprofen, so I just took double dose of the recommended antacid. prepared two glasses of sn, first one is 25g in 50 mL water and second is 20g in 50 mL water. I took the antacid at 5:10 pm, then didn't have the guts to take the sn until a little after 6. I only ended up taking a sip of the drink, probably a little over a tablespoon. few grams. felt my heart beating fast after about 10 mins. then I started feeling dizzy, the heart beating got worse. after abt an hr, I was still conscious. panicking a little, feeling unwell. heart beating fast, felt dizzy and delirious. threw up. was very blue and pale. after almost 2 hrs since I took it, my brother found me. i got taken to the hospital and was administered methylene blue and vitamin c, and a little bit of charcoal, which I didn't want to finish and they didn't make me. lots of probing and blood tests taken. they gave me oxygen on the way there and I immediately felt better. they said my oxygen level was at 80 something percent when I was found. now I'm staying at the hospital for a few days until I can see the psychiatrist. tbh, I feel really bad for my parents and my brother (this is my brother's second time finding me and he's young and doesn't deserve to go thru this), but I still feel like being unalive. my reasons to not live are stupid so I'm not gonna say why.
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Fadeawaaaay
Visionary
- Nov 12, 2021
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rationaltake
I'm rocking it - in another universe
- Sep 28, 2021
- 2,707
That's awful. You are obviously suffering. Your reasons are your reasons. Not stupid at all.
Snake of Eden
“Ye shall be as gods..🍎 🐍”
- Jun 22, 2021
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There are such things as stupid reasons to ctb such as low snapchat score
Death is beautiful
Warlock
- May 20, 2021
- 792
rationaltake
I'm rocking it - in another universe
- Sep 28, 2021
- 2,707
I can't judge anybody else's reasons. I have my own reasons which are valid to me. Somebody else might find my reasons stupid.
intheweeds
Student
- Mar 20, 2019
- 182
I feel sorry for your little brother. Twice now he's found you? I hope that doesn't traumatize him.
It's one thing to take your own life, but it's another thing to put your family through trauma. If you decide to go through it again take steps to leave them out of it.
It's one thing to take your own life, but it's another thing to put your family through trauma. If you decide to go through it again take steps to leave them out of it.
Snake of Eden
“Ye shall be as gods..🍎 🐍”
- Jun 22, 2021
- 2,473
This
I would say objectively that someone killing themselves over low snapchat score is stupid.
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it wasn't exactly traumatic tbh. I think if I wasn't found and if I stuck with it, i probably could have ctb. the nurse said it was pretty bad, the condition I was in.
nope I was still conscious
yeah ik. i feel bad and he doesn't deserve that. he's almost an adult but still young. i should have planned it out better and not have been impulsive with it.
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Fadeawaaaay
Visionary
- Nov 12, 2021
- 2,160
I'm sorry you had to go through that. Sounds like the SN wasn't pure enough. You should have lost consciousness way sooner.
Not if he only took one sip instead of drinking the whole thing.
grungeCat
Awkward & weird
- Jul 5, 2020
- 1,110
I'm sorry it happened. It kinda reminds me of my unsuccessful SN ctb attempt... (which I described here, check it out if you wanna know). I guzzled down first glass of sn but was too afraid to take the second one. Nobody fetched ambulance though, I managed to recover on my own. Stay strong!
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FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 43,300
We all have the right to exit at a time of our own choosing as we did not ask to exist. It is a personal decision and we do not need to justify our reasons for leaving.
I'm sorry you went through this. I can imagine a failed attempt must be awful. I wish you the best.
I'm sorry you went through this. I can imagine a failed attempt must be awful. I wish you the best.
intheweeds
Student
- Mar 20, 2019
- 182
Absolutely. Social media has fucking poisoned so many peoples minds and tricked them into thinking it's a important aspect of their life.
EDIT: That's not just my opinion btw. It's a fact. Studies have been done showing as much.
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a mix of relief and disappointment. grateful that I'm okay...but then realizing I'm still here and life is still gonna go on as is makes me feel a lil dreadful.
yeah I agree. I find myself scrolling on social media and seeing everyone with so many friends and girls looking so pretty and feel really bad about myself.
that's impressive you recovered on your own. I'm glad ur okay, and I hope u eventually find the peace u are looking for.
no the sn was 99.9% pure. from a pretty legit site. it's just that I only took one sip.
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I don't understand why you would take less then the recommended dose. I mean, if you want to kill yourself, you take the recommended dose, and if you don't, you don't take anything at all, right? It appears your decision wasn't set, so perhaps take your time and reavaluate things.
Rayzieka
Not Really Here
- Apr 28, 2021
- 637
So even a sip is enough to do a bit of damage huh...
I've only tasted it to see how bad it was. I didn't realize it could do any damage from a small bit.
I've only tasted it to see how bad it was. I didn't realize it could do any damage from a small bit.
i wanted to die bur when it came down to it, it felt too scary. it was rather impulsive.
yes it's pretty powerful stuff so be careful with it
yeah, and also the taste
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Dot
Info abt typng styl on prfle.
- Sep 26, 2021
- 3,333
Thread 'I just tested the SN and now I feel dizzy and my heartbeat is speeding up' https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...-dizzy-and-my-heartbeat-is-speeding-up.66030/
This is why ctbing impulsively is usually* a bad idea. You will probably fail and you will have to face the consequences of your failure: involuntary psychiatric hospitalization, possible medical costs, having to deal with your family after that, etc. For many people, this only makes them want to ctb even more, but now it becomes more difficult because many people know that you're at risk of doing that.
In the case of SN, you need to promise yourself that once you initiate the ctb attempt, you will go through with it until the end. If you can't make that promise then you should postpone the attempt until you can, even if that means never doing it.
If you feel very depressed but not depressed to the point of really wanting to ctb, then there are other options, depending on the country you live in. For example you can voluntarily check yourself into a psychiatric ward. As long as you don't tell them you're suicidal, they will let you leave whenever you want. If that's too scary for you then, at least in my country, there is the option of day care treatment: you come to the ward for a few hours each day to get treatment (meting with therapist, support groups, occupational therapy, etc.) but you don't stay there for the night. And there are all sorts of other options.
* There are some exceptions. For example, if you intend to shoot yourself in the head then it doesn't matter if you do it impulsively or not - the end result is the same: (almost) certain death.
In the case of SN, you need to promise yourself that once you initiate the ctb attempt, you will go through with it until the end. If you can't make that promise then you should postpone the attempt until you can, even if that means never doing it.
If you feel very depressed but not depressed to the point of really wanting to ctb, then there are other options, depending on the country you live in. For example you can voluntarily check yourself into a psychiatric ward. As long as you don't tell them you're suicidal, they will let you leave whenever you want. If that's too scary for you then, at least in my country, there is the option of day care treatment: you come to the ward for a few hours each day to get treatment (meting with therapist, support groups, occupational therapy, etc.) but you don't stay there for the night. And there are all sorts of other options.
* There are some exceptions. For example, if you intend to shoot yourself in the head then it doesn't matter if you do it impulsively or not - the end result is the same: (almost) certain death.
Was the heart beating fast a painful experience? On a scale of 1-10 10 being unbearable, how painful overall was SN experience?
You will probably fail and you will have to face the consequences of your failure: involuntary psychiatric hospitalization
Believe me its better to die
Believe me its better to die
Elri
Student
- Dec 2, 2021
- 180
What's the point of a mini attempt if you don't even want to do it. childish Attempts like this makes it hard for so many people who are serious about their decision unable to access to any SN. Just go therapy and stop the nonsense
liberty_222
psychotic
- Nov 28, 2021
- 361
Umm i don't think it's right to invalidate someone like this. Who said they don't want to do it? SI took over and they couldn't get through with it and that's okay. It's their choice to live or ctb. Just because they failed their attempt doesn't mean it's nonsense and i do not understand how their failed attempt is making it difficult for someone else.
Dot
Info abt typng styl on prfle.
- Sep 26, 2021
- 3,333
Shrng sources mks it dffclt 4 othrs 2 accss, nt bckng out of attmpt. No1 knws hw an attmpt wll g/ untl strtng it. If cldnt fllw thrgh is ok. Nt a nd 2 mke o.p fl wrse.
Elri
Student
- Dec 2, 2021
- 180
Yeah i Don't know why did i say that i was angry and on my sleeping drug , sorry guys
I thought we were only suppose to drink one anyways the 2nd was for if you got sick??
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