Story Took my SN out of its hiding place so it's near me now and ready to go

[BluesRunTheGame]

It felt good to hold it in my hands again. Really fucking good. I'm getting closer to this thing we call ctb.

 

[london3]

It felt good to hold it in my hands again. Really fucking good. I'm getting closer to this thing we call ctb.

i hope you get some peace of mind knowing you can now ctb when you decide you are ready

 

[hellispink]

I am sorry to hear you are going through such a difficult time. I wish you peace in whatever decision you take.

 

[Eternally Dottie]

Hope you decide not to but of course it's your choice

 

[Zegers]

I think it will be easier for me to picture the exit when having the product in my hands, i feel trapped and hopeless. I have been thinking about doing it in different ways but I think it will be better to wait and do it properly.

 

[BluesRunTheGame]

I think it will be easier for me to picture the exit when having the product in my hands, i feel trapped and hopeless. I have been thinking about doing it in different ways but I think it will be better to wait and do it properly.

Yeah there's a sense of freedom holding it in your hands, like a salty cyanide pill.

 

[September5th]

I wanted to hold it in my hands too. I'm jealous of you right now XD!
I'll soon join you too! SN is the only medicine we need! :)

 

[Eternally Dottie]

It felt good to hold it in my hands again. Really fucking good. I'm getting closer to this thing we call ctb.

Hope that's not the case

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I'm happy for you, if this is what you want. I will be sorry to see you go.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand why you would be so relieved. I think that for many it can be comforting just having a way to exit this world at a time of their own choosing. I wish you relief from suffering.

 

[Niirvana]

I'm happy for you, if this is what you want. I will be sorry to see you go.

I like your answer, because most say they are sorry for the person's suffering. And actually the person is happy because he stopped suffering. This is how I see it in my case

 

[CursedSoul]

damn, i wish i had this feeling again, after 15 tries, you loose the feeling of it, as you're sure you're gonna survive it, place a shotgun in my hands, and i would be sure i wouldn't get the feeling haha, embrace it blue, this freedom, this relief of knowing it could all be over when you choose to, anything could happen, but i doesn't matter, you can make the suffering stop instantly, you feel godlike, damn now i'm getting sad just thinking of how great it was... I'm sure i lost it for good hahaha, sad

 

[Lost Magic]

I know how you feel. I don't want to be around much longer either.