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ItsMe-Hecked

ItsMe-Hecked

Student
Dec 30, 2021
123
The good news is that I had 9 hours easily in my house, almost unbothered. Bad news is none of these fake people give a shit when I ctb. Idk, hopefully convulsions will be quiet enough after a long school-day. I need this. I wish the package would arrive.
 
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Suicidebydeath

No chances to be happy - dead inside
Nov 25, 2021
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I'm sorry to hear this.

Is there a specific reason your friends should message you during those 9 hours? Did you ask them?

Friends sometimes go months or years without messaging me unless I contact them first. Then sometimes a stranger will randomly message me to wish me well. I don't write to the person I think about most every 9 hours, but sometimes I feel that way.
 
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ItsMe-Hecked

Student
Dec 30, 2021
123
I'm sorry to hear this.

Is there a specific reason your friends should message you during those 9 hours? Did you ask them?

Friends sometimes go months or years without messaging me unless I contact them first. Then sometimes a stranger will randomly message me to wish me well. I don't write to the person I think about most every 9 hours, but sometimes I feel that way.
Because I only have one real friend, and all these other people have people they would rather message other than me. That's the thing. I'm an expendable.
 
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Suicidebydeath

No chances to be happy - dead inside
Nov 25, 2021
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Understandable. I think our feelings play tricks on us sometimes.

If you message a friend now maybe they'll talk?
 
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ItsMe-Hecked

Student
Dec 30, 2021
123
Understandable. I think our feelings play tricks on us sometimes.

If you message a friend now maybe they'll talk?
No, that isn't how it works, unfortunately.
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,293
People can be very disappointing. Many people are selfish and only care when it directly affects themselves. I'm sorry you are going through this. Whatever happens, I wish you the best.
 
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sadeyesWA

sadeyesWA

See ya later, alligator.
Dec 15, 2021
32
I feel your pain. A few years ago, when I was more social, I thought I had a lot of friends. As soon as my depression got worse again everyone was gone. I have 1 close friend, but they never initiate communication. I feel like I'm going to bother them whenever I text. They usually don't reply.
 
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Capsicum_Corral

Experienced
Dec 10, 2021
209
Because I only have one real friend, and all these other people have people they would rather message other than me. That's the thing. I'm an expendable.
Having friends is really about exhibiting some standard behaviors that typically cause people to 'like' you, to say it in too technical terms. People who don't naturally possess those behaviors can learn them, just like learning any other skill. ALL behaviors cause reactions in other people, and it's fairly critical to present people you're wanting to be friends with the behaviors that cause them to like you. A smile and compliment can pull them closer. A scowl and an insult can drive them away. There's a lot of nuance between those.

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Why do I have no friends?


When someone doesn't have friends it's almost never because their core personality is unlikable. It's usually due to a mix of interfering factors such as: They're not knowledgeable about the skills for making friends. They're too shy, socially anxious, insecure, or unconfident to pursue friendships.
Do a search for how to make friends, and explore that rabbit hole. Take it too far though and you may end up having to turn your phone off just to get some peace and quiet.
 
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ItsMe-Hecked

Student
Dec 30, 2021
123
Having friends is really about exhibiting some standard behaviors that typically cause people to 'like' you, to say it in too technical terms. People who don't naturally possess those behaviors can learn them, just like learning any other skill. ALL behaviors cause reactions in other people, and it's fairly critical to present people you're wanting to be friends with the behaviors that cause them to like you. A smile and compliment can pull them closer. A scowl and an insult can drive them away. There's a lot of nuance between those.

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Do a search for how to make friends, and explore that rabbit hole. Take it too far though and you may end up having to turn your phone off just to get some peace and quiet.
To be entirely honest, while I assume this message is well-intention-ed, I can't say that I would use the advice. I do all of this stuff except the smiling (because I'm incredibly suicidal at all times), and it's gotten me nowhere. Yes, I am part of the problem, but every other person is just as bad as I am. Sure, they may have social skills, but they are also likely irreparably superficial and unpleasant to be around.

Despite being lonely, and romanticizing connection with other humans, it would be a terrible mistake to ignore why I stopped being a "social butterfly" in the first place.
 
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Capsicum_Corral

Experienced
Dec 10, 2021
209
To be entirely honest, while I assume this message is well-intention-ed, I can't say that I would use the advice. I do all of this stuff except the smiling (because I'm incredibly suicidal at all times), and it's gotten me nowhere. Yes, I am part of the problem, but every other person is just as bad as I am. Sure, they may have social skills, but they are also likely irreparably superficial and unpleasant to be around.

Despite being lonely, and romanticizing connection with other humans, it would be a terrible mistake to ignore why I stopped being a "social butterfly" in the first place.
Yes, it was well intentioned, as is this one. I'm wondering if the being incredibly suicidal at all times part might be sending mixed messages to the people you're trying to be friends with. It's often on an unconscious level, but people pick up on subtle inconsistencies like that.

I speak to other humans irl a few times per month, so perhaps I'm not exactly a social butterfly any longer either. But for people who do want to make friends, and I see posts about this, it's entirely possible to do if one has some control over their own behavior. People with BPD issues are going to have problems with consistently presenting 'friend' behaviors, which is pretty unfortunate.

May I ask why you stopped being a social butterfly in the first place?
 
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ItsMe-Hecked

Student
Dec 30, 2021
123
May I ask why you stopped being a social butterfly in the first place?
Being a social butterfly disgusted me. Yeah, I was friends with most-everyone I met, but I also got to see how cruel they were to others; to people they didn't associate with, and to their other "friends". I couldn't be a part of that.
 
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saveusy2n

Member
Jan 2, 2022
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The good news is that I had 9 hours easily in my house, almost unbothered. Bad news is none of these fake people give a shit when I ctb. Idk, hopefully convulsions will be quiet enough after a long school-day. I need this. I wish the package would arrive.
The fuck. I haven't recieved any message from any irl friend for months now. well no need to get sad. It will only get worse. I have online friends though
 
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Capsicum_Corral

Experienced
Dec 10, 2021
209
Being a social butterfly disgusted me. Yeah, I was friends with most-everyone I met, but I also got to see how cruel they were to others; to people they didn't associate with, and to their other "friends". I couldn't be a part of that.
There are a lot of people out there who aren't like that, but it takes a fair amount of sifting to find them. Social and cultural factors (among others) can play a large role in the types of people you're likely to meet too. Site users here seem to skew pretty young, so generational issues can play a big role too. Imagine how bad off the kids who grow up on social media are going to be.
 
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idiotstillwantstodie

Student
Nov 11, 2021
169
The good news is that I had 9 hours easily in my house, almost unbothered. Bad news is none of these fake people give a shit when I ctb. Idk, hopefully convulsions will be quiet enough after a long school-day. I need this. I wish the package would arrive.
I think that the more important point in this is why do you even care if they care? You dont need friends for anything. They probably couldnt improve your life situation even if they tried.

Personally, im only glad to know that nobody gives a shit. Makes the whole process much simpler for me.
 
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ItsMe-Hecked

Student
Dec 30, 2021
123
I think that the more important point in this is why do you even care if they care? You dont need friends for anything. They probably couldnt improve your life situation even if they tried.

Personally, im only glad to know that nobody gives a shit. Makes the whole process much simpler for me.
Ah yeah. That's true.
 
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Isisnefert

Student
Mar 17, 2020
193
Siento tu dolor. Hace unos años, cuando era más social, pensaba que tenía muchos amigos. Tan pronto como mi depresión empeoró de nuevo, todos se fueron. Tengo 1 amigo cercano, pero nunca se comunican. Siento que los voy a molestar cada vez que les envíe un mensaje de texto. Por lo general, no responden.
Same
 
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SuicideM4n

Member
Aug 9, 2021
59
Except my parents, I can't even remember when was the last time someone texted me
 
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Eternal Oblivion

Student
Nov 23, 2021
195
9 hours is nothing, there were times I went days without talking to my own girlfriend and we weren't in a fight or anything of the sort. I have childhood friends and we often go months without talking, but when we do, it's all normal.

You would think people have their own life to attend to.
 
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NearlyIrrelevantCake

The Cake Is A Lie
Aug 12, 2021
1,722
I've been known to sleep for upwards of 20 hours sometimes and my friends all know that.

Recently I avoided friends online for about a day, had my apps all set to invisible status or offline. I just needed some alone time. When I talked to a friend the next day about it, they said they thought I was "having one of [my] mega-sleeps again".
 
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ItsMe-Hecked

Student
Dec 30, 2021
123
I've been known to sleep for upwards of 20 hours sometimes and my friends all know that.

Recently I avoided friends online for about a day, had my apps all set to invisible status or offline. I just needed some alone time. When I talked to a friend the next day about it, they said they thought I was "having one of [my] mega-sleeps again".
ah gotcha lol
 
KTbear

KTbear

This Be The Verse
Dec 15, 2021
80
The good news is that I had 9 hours easily in my house, almost unbothered. Bad news is none of these fake people give a shit when I ctb. Idk, hopefully convulsions will be quiet enough after a long school-day. I need this. I wish the package would arrive.

The good news is that I had 9 hours easily in my house, almost unbothered. Bad news is none of these fake people give a shit when I ctb. Idk, hopefully convulsions will be quiet enough after a long school-day. I need this. I wish the package would arrive.
Do you have housemates? Just curious because 9 hours seems like a short time period to me, but I work from home and after work hours nobody texts me. About every two weeks either my sister or dad will text, but that's it.
 
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ItsMe-Hecked

Student
Dec 30, 2021
123
Do you have housemates? Just curious because 9 hours seems like a short time period to me, but I work from home and after work hours nobody texts me. About every two weeks either my sister or dad will text, but that's it.
Yeah, I made this post during a panic attack. It doesn't really make any sense now.
 
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Blue_mist

Mortal
Apr 14, 2021
229
I don't receive any messages nor calls from my friends at all unless i take the initiative . The only person who checks on me from time to time is my previous landlord ( i rented out an apartment from him in 2018 for one year) what a kind person he is.
 
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Rain_Hermit

Rain_Hermit

Member
Dec 12, 2021
37
I can't really tell if my friends care or not after 4 years of hanging out with them.I know it would get awkward if I speak to them regarding such issues and things will never be the same again.
 
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BreakTheCycle

Life means suffering. Try to break the cycle.
Aug 6, 2021
93
Simple on the outside but rly hard to implement. I started to never expect anything from anyone or from any experience in my life. It's hard to stick with this thinking and sometimes I fail rly hard here but without expectations everything I receive is a gift. No matter if it's human interactions, gifts or whatever. I believe it's pretty unhealthy to expect smth from people around you. Only leads to disappointment and maybe these people think just the exact same way and are disappointed because of their expectations?
 

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