MrSuicide

MrSuicide

Member
Oct 11, 2024
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One of the reasons I'm CTBing is that I can't handle the basic things that others can. I was crying earlier over an internet argument, it wasn't very serious at all but I was so upset about basically nothing. It reminded me of the times I cried while being scolded, while in class over schoolwork, while thinking of the past and future. Everything is so difficult for me when it really isn't difficult at all. I'm pathetic. Nobody takes me seriously. Having to work sounds like a nightmare. Taxes no thank you. Other people are too mean. My options for life are becoming despairingly limited, even if I wasn't suicidal. I'm just glad this can all be over soon.

I feel bad for my mother and I would like to give her a painting or something to remember me by before I CTB. Or money, or something to repay her for the work she has done. I have a younger brother and they're very close, he's strong. Much stronger than I am. I hope they take care of each other when I'm gone.
 
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TragedyBornCrimson

TragedyBornCrimson

I accept my eternal punishment
Oct 19, 2023
245
Being sensitive can really be the worst. Things that others consider minor hiccups are devastating to me. It's hard for regular people to understand, it's akin to living in different realities
 
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sevennn

sevennn

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Sep 11, 2024
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i cried today over a post too šŸ¤— being sensitive kind of sucks i feel you
 
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newstart2000

newstart2000

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Nov 26, 2024
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Me either. I have struggled almost twenty years.
 
isolatedl111

isolatedl111

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Nov 25, 2024
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One of the reasons I'm CTBing is that I can't handle the basic things that others can. I was crying earlier over an internet argument, it wasn't very serious at all but I was so upset about basically nothing. It reminded me of the times I cried while being scolded, while in class over schoolwork, while thinking of the past and future. Everything is so difficult for me when it really isn't difficult at all. I'm pathetic. Nobody takes me seriously. Having to work sounds like a nightmare. Taxes no thank you. Other people are too mean. My options for life are becoming despairingly limited, even if I wasn't suicidal. I'm just glad this can all be over soon.

I feel bad for my mother and I would like to give her a painting or something to remember me by before I CTB. Or money, or something to repay her for the work she has done. I have a younger brother and they're very close, he's strong. Much stronger than I am. I hope they take care of each other when I'm gone.
I am a sensitive person
 
notadaisy

notadaisy

already wilted
Feb 7, 2023
95
I'm so sorry to hear what you're going through
 
dontwakemeup

dontwakemeup

Experienced
Nov 11, 2024
224
I'm sorry you're having a difficult time. I think leaving a painting for your mother is a beautiful idea, she would love and cherish it.

I cry sometimes when I come to this site and see all the pain others are in. It's comforting to know I'm not alone anymore, but it's heartbreaking.
Navigating life can be difficult when nobody understands you and ses how you feel inside. It's difficult holding all of your issues in, just to make others happy.

You know I've always hated that saying, "suicide is a selfish decision." That's so far from the truth! The reality is we only stay her in agony and pain so our loved ones won't have to feel the absence of us.

You seem like a wonderful brother and son
I hope you can find some happiness today, even if it's just your favorite ice cream.
 
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Warlord's Pulse

Warlord's Pulse

Time to end this endless war
May 27, 2024
202
I'm not sensitive, but I feel I'm weak by other means, like being strangely dysfunctional and struggling to even get out of bed to start the day
 
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lawlietsph

lawlietsph

can we be done here
May 6, 2023
166
I get you 100%. When I get a mean comment or anything, my whole month is fucked. I'll never ever forget even the slightest confrontation with others.
I also understand the work part too, I am unemployed because I can't deal with this bullshit that we call working. I don't want to talk about myself on your thread OP so I'm really sorry for it, but tomorrow I'm going to have an online job interview and it already makes me want to die, throw up, stab myself in the head. It is waaaaaaaaaay too much stimuli for me, I'm going to have such a huge mental breakdown after - I already know it.
We simply cannot function like others, I have no idea why and why we are forced to live like this, why can't we just be left the fuck alone. This pressure from society is the worst. I believe them when they are telling me that I worth nothing just because I refuse to give my time and my everything to make others rich. I shouldn't believe it but I do.
I wish there was a place for people like us and just let us be. Simply let us live and don't expect anything from us ā˜¹ļø
 

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