
theresonlyonewayout
Student
- Jan 31, 2021
- 121
So, I'll make this as brief as possible lol. A couple of weeks ago I was picked up by police after being 'missing' for a few hours, hallucinating, trying to pick up imaginary plumbing pipe in the middle of a busy country Lane. Fuck knows how I get there, before I took the OD I had walked into isolated fields so I couldn't be helped too soon but hey, there I was picking up my pipe. I had two empty sleeves of Olanzapine in my pocket (my antiemetic) and had some SN I had decanted into foil, which they didn't find. I only remember small snippets of what happened after. I went to a&e by ambulance, had two mental health assessments, I was too out of it for the first one and don't remember the second. They wanted to section me again my mum fought them and I came home.
So, that's the background now to the point - I had a meeting with CMHT a couple of days ago and the psychologist said to me that hospital is only helpful for people in short term mental health crisis, that my risks went up in hospital and that if I want to kill myself there's nothing they can do to stop me.
I guess I'm a little confused - I mean, I know the hospital local to me is in trouble over in ward deaths at the moment but it sounds an awful lot like I'm being refused because I'm too risky for their stats and reputation. Now don't get me wrong, I don't want admission, I guess I'm just coming to the realisation, reading between the lines, that this is them saying - 'I'm sorry, we can't help you anymore but we aren't allowed to say that and so we will offer pointless shit until you go away'
Anyone else have an opinion?
FYI - ODing on Olanzapine will mess up the rest of the plan!! But at least no one thought to ask about the SN!!
So, that's the background now to the point - I had a meeting with CMHT a couple of days ago and the psychologist said to me that hospital is only helpful for people in short term mental health crisis, that my risks went up in hospital and that if I want to kill myself there's nothing they can do to stop me.
I guess I'm a little confused - I mean, I know the hospital local to me is in trouble over in ward deaths at the moment but it sounds an awful lot like I'm being refused because I'm too risky for their stats and reputation. Now don't get me wrong, I don't want admission, I guess I'm just coming to the realisation, reading between the lines, that this is them saying - 'I'm sorry, we can't help you anymore but we aren't allowed to say that and so we will offer pointless shit until you go away'
Anyone else have an opinion?
FYI - ODing on Olanzapine will mess up the rest of the plan!! But at least no one thought to ask about the SN!!