Anger is a good motivator, though I doubt it makes for a good substitute for happiness. It's a step at least.
I don't have anyone to be angry at. I've not been abused, I've not been bullied. I'm glad you found a reason to live for, but it wouldn't work for me.
I'm hoping you'll be able to turn that anger into positivity and wish you the best.
Shouldn't this thread go into the Recovery subforum instead?
Anger IS a motivator, but a good one?
Sometimes. Sometimes not.
I think it all depends on whether the motivation born from anger can realistically lead anywhere..to anything, soon enough, that would make life worth living.
(I suppose that may be what you mean by turning it into positivity..?)
Otherwise it's just going to stew.
I know because I have a deep well of hatred, anger, bitterness, and resentment.
All for good reason (tho I am glad you have never been bullied or abused, there are enough reasons to die already).
There is no they anymore. It is just loathsome subconscious voices that I am left to grapple with everyday. I dont care about these people if they live or die or suffer. I have the comfort in that nobody is ever spared the atrocities of life rich or poor, ugly or beautiful, weak or strong. They all grow sick, wrinkly, undesired, weak, useless and they leave with nothing in the end
Unfortunately (or fortunately depending on how you look at it), many people simply are spared atrocities in life that others are not.
Privileges count for a lot, to make any other pitfalls and dire circumstances worth it, but some people get nothing but pain and suffering, whereas others get very little to the point that they die with a smile on their face, content with the life they lived.
There is no balance to the atrocities or the respites and contentment, it's a spectrum that we all fall on, somewhere.
I've never thought of death as being the equalizer that others seem to.
To me it can never make up for the disparities that life itself insists upon.