ezekielj
Member
- Aug 3, 2025
- 8
Hello, strangers,
I don't know if anyone here knows me, or if anyone ever will. My account is sort of new (over a month old), and I don't know any of you in real life. But I wanted to leave something behind before I CTB, a final message in a place that, for a short while, offered me comfort.
In the next hour or two, I will CTB via SN. I have done the preparation, and already sorted out my final letters and everything thereafter. Immediately after this post, I will be trying to sign out of this account, and then permanently wipe my browsing history with this site, as if I never knew it. So no one can try to label or blame this site in particular as my final reason to CTB.
This site can be a strange place. People connect, they talk, they share, and there's a warmth in that. I've felt it. And yet… I also know what it can lead to. The loop of comparison, the endless cycles of doubt and isolation. I've been caught in it, more than once. I know others have too. That's part of why I'm writing this: to reach even one person who might be reading these words and feeling like there's no way forward.
I hope, truly hope, that even if this post is forgotten among the hundreds of thousands, one person might see it and pause. One person might choose to keep going. One person might find a reason to survive, just a little longer. That is all I ask. No one else should feel like they have to end their life. Life is hard. Life is heavy. But you are not alone, even if it feels that way. You are worth the time it takes to find light again, even if it seems impossible right now.
This is my path. But if my words here can, in some small way, save just one person, then maybe there's some purpose to it after all. I leave this here with that hope, and with my gratitude to the few brief comforts I found in human connection, even online.
Take care of yourselves. Be kind to each other. Keep talking. Keep reaching. Keep living.
I don't know if anyone here knows me, or if anyone ever will. My account is sort of new (over a month old), and I don't know any of you in real life. But I wanted to leave something behind before I CTB, a final message in a place that, for a short while, offered me comfort.
In the next hour or two, I will CTB via SN. I have done the preparation, and already sorted out my final letters and everything thereafter. Immediately after this post, I will be trying to sign out of this account, and then permanently wipe my browsing history with this site, as if I never knew it. So no one can try to label or blame this site in particular as my final reason to CTB.
This site can be a strange place. People connect, they talk, they share, and there's a warmth in that. I've felt it. And yet… I also know what it can lead to. The loop of comparison, the endless cycles of doubt and isolation. I've been caught in it, more than once. I know others have too. That's part of why I'm writing this: to reach even one person who might be reading these words and feeling like there's no way forward.
I hope, truly hope, that even if this post is forgotten among the hundreds of thousands, one person might see it and pause. One person might choose to keep going. One person might find a reason to survive, just a little longer. That is all I ask. No one else should feel like they have to end their life. Life is hard. Life is heavy. But you are not alone, even if it feels that way. You are worth the time it takes to find light again, even if it seems impossible right now.
This is my path. But if my words here can, in some small way, save just one person, then maybe there's some purpose to it after all. I leave this here with that hope, and with my gratitude to the few brief comforts I found in human connection, even online.
Take care of yourselves. Be kind to each other. Keep talking. Keep reaching. Keep living.
