Tonight is my night

[lostdog661]

I'm so tired of living in this world. The people in my life tend to be unreliable. The fakes are unbareable. Before the start of the pandemic I went to AA meetings to try to make my life better. I met a person who claimed to be a mental health counselor and a recovering addict. I sought after them to be my sponsor. Every time I would try to work with them on my recovery they would molest me or commit other forms of sexual battery. I struggle with porn addiction and they claimed to be a recovering sex addict so I thought they could help. I was wrong. I tried helping out a friend by letting there friends move I. Short term and they had a friend come over and they tried to burn my house down by lighting a fire and playing with fire. This person also gave my friend an sti. This friend said they were gay and would never sleep with a man too. I'm just going to bring the bbq in my bathroom and take all the pills I have. If I only fall asleep and miss work tomorrow then oh well. I'll just jump in front of a bus. I'm ready to die and get out of this horrible world that makes me want to die every second I am alive

 

[FuneralCry]

Some people really are so awful and cruel, it sounds so horrible what you had to experience. I know that this life can be unbearable when you are desperate to leave. I hope you find relief from your suffering in whatever you decide to do.

 

[lostdog661]

I just wish I could die to night. I lost my job, and the people around me are fake. The only person I can trust is my best friend, but I feel that our relationship is strained. I love her more than any person I've ever met, but the more I begging to love her, the more I feel our relationship is strained. I can't live with out her and my life has no meaning with out her. I would kill myself in a heart beat if I lost her from my life. I just want to die to avoid the pain. I can't called the hotlines any more and anyone I try to seek help from, with the exception of my closest friend, end poorly and pushes me further to wanting to die. Please I just want to die to avoid this heart ache and distress that I experience. I'm desperate and in excruciating pain

 

[lostdog661]

Im still feeling the same way. I am separated from reality. I make decent money at my new job but it doesn't bring me any happiness. I tried going to church today for spiritual guidance and felt comfortable but my mom strongly disapproved

 

[VikingHagstrom]

Im still feeling the same way. I am separated from reality. I make decent money at my new job but it doesn't bring me any happiness. I tried going to church today for spiritual guidance and felt comfortable but my mom strongly disapproved

If it felt comfortable it's a good thing, try to go again

 

[Dot]

Im still feeling the same way. I am separated from reality. I make decent money at my new job but it doesn't bring me any happiness. I tried going to church today for spiritual guidance and felt comfortable but my mom strongly disapproved

If smethng hlps u thn = ds nt mattr whn ur mothr thnks

 

[lofticries]

Im still feeling the same way. I am separated from reality. I make decent money at my new job but it doesn't bring me any happiness. I tried going to church today for spiritual guidance and felt comfortable but my mom strongly disapproved

Don't tell her you're going. If it's helping you cope with whatever you're going through then that's all that matters.

 

[Deathinminutes]

Im still feeling the same way. I am separated from reality. I make decent money at my new job but it doesn't bring me any happiness. I tried going to church today for spiritual guidance and felt comfortable but my mom strongly disapproved

Hi, I'm glad you went and really happy you felt comfortable even if for a little while. That's great for you. Sometimes it's needed and ok to be selfish and take care of ourselves first! Hugs.

 

[Graytaichi]

Huggs

 

[Shu]

Are you going to CTB today?

Why is that the main question I see you ask on everyone's thread?

 

[WorthlessTrash]

Are you going to CTB today?

What business is that of yours? Have some respect.

 

[Shu]

What business is that of yours? Have some respect.

If you go through their postings it's always "are gonna ctb today" "when are you gonna ctb" "do you have a set time" it's just strange to me.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

If you go through their postings it's always "are gonna ctb today" "when are you gonna ctb" "do you have a set time" it's just strange to me.

Some profiles I cant even go through on here.

 

[Smart No More]

Some profiles I cant even go through on here.

You can see anyone's posts by hovering over their avatar and clicking on the number indicating their post count. On mobile you habe to click their avatar. The rest is the same.

 

[Shu]

Some profiles I cant even go through on here.

If you scroll over their name or click their name you will see "messages" under it click the number under messages.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

Thank you.

 

[Shu]

Everyone else is showing love and support and one person comes in saying "are you going to kill yourself today" like wtf lol

 

[WorthlessTrash]

Pretty morbid, tbh.

 

[Shu]

Seems like they deleted their comments.