I also feel so incredibly disgusted by existence, I could never wish to endure something so harmful and futile as existing anyway. Life in itself undeniably is the true problem and it's very much understandable wishing to permanently sleep. Non existence is the best thing possible to me as there are no problems and suffering in death, there is simply nothing for all eternity and that is ideal.
As humans we deserve the option of a straightforward way to exit this existence, nobody should have to feel so trapped in the hell that is existing against their wishes. I really doubt that many people actually enjoy being here, they just carry on existing either for the sake of other people, or because there is no straightforward way to exit. And I guess that many just carry on due to the fact that as humans we are programmed to survive, this existence is all that people know, but I think that if people actually want to stay here then they must be very delusional. We exist in this world filled with risks, where there is so much potential for harm and where we are destined to just suffer and deteriorate from age. At least to me, it's always preferable to not exist.
