Tomorrow’s the Day

[openBottomJeans]

I went to church again today. Damn near cried through the whole service. Felt such a big lump in my throat.

I think the preacher knew something was up. He said he felt an energy that someone was in distress. He felt compelled to speak on it. Asked that we raise our hand to be prayed for.
I couldn't bring myself to raise my hand.

Never have I cried in church before. I can only imagine what will happen next week. How will the church handle this news :/

They had a message on their podium..

""
The flowers you left along the way still grace our path.
Each passing day, your song, your smile, forever still.
But you're just ahead; beyond the hill

In memory of all members who have departed this life - WE MISS YOU ""

I don't know why, but this poem really resonated with me.

May god rest my soul

 

[unluckysadness]

Your message is very touching. I go to church sometimes too. If you believe in God, no doubt He will forgive you. I'm sorry you're suffering so much. Did you ask for a sign before going to chuch ? I believe in signs and afterlife. I don't want to influence your choice. I hope you can get a miracle in the next hours (I wish a miracle for myself too). If you want to PM I'm here. God bless you

 

[darksouls]

I wish you to find the peace you are looking for

 

[openBottomJeans]

I wish you to find the peace you are looking for

Thank you friend

Your message is very touching. I go to church sometimes too. If you believe in God, no doubt He will forgive you. I'm sorry you're suffering so much. Did you ask for a sign before going to chuch ? I believe in signs and afterlife. I don't want to influence your choice. I hope you can get a miracle in the next hours (I wish a miracle for myself too). If you want to PM I'm here. God bless you

I've asked for signs before but I haven't this time around. Maybe on the way to my final destination tomorrow I'll see one. Whether it be a blue jay or a crow.. just somthing out of the ordinary.

I'm not really religious, but I do believe that somthing made us. That's all I can look upon. I guess I'll be finding out soon enough.
I'll be thinking of you too :)

 

[SeventhMoonMaster]

I'm not usually a fan of poetry but stuff like this really catches my attention. Hope you will find your peace

 

[openBottomJeans]

I'm not usually a fan of poetry but stuff like this really catches my attention. Hope you will find your peace

Thank you… me too my friend. me too….

 

[EternalShore]

I wish you the best, openBottomJeans~ I'm sorry for whatever in your life has driven you here, but it's good to hear that church seems to have had a positive effect on you~ Sewer slide may be a sin, but remember that in Christianity, that Jesus, who is Lord, died for your sins, so that if one repents and believes in Him, they may go to Heaven in the afterlife~ :) May you join them beyond the hill~ See ya, and I'll be praying for you~ :)

 

[Warriorsfan]

How do you send heart to someone ?
I'm using cell phone.

 

[openBottomJeans]

How do you send heart to someone ?
I'm using cell phone.

Hold down on the like button , the menu of emojis should pop up :)

I wish you the best, openBottomJeans~ I'm sorry for whatever in your life has driven you here, but it's good to hear that church seems to have had a positive effect on you~ Sewer slide may be a sin, but remember that in Christianity, that Jesus, who is Lord, died for your sins, so that if one repents and believes in Him, they may go to Heaven in the afterlife~ :) May you join them beyond the hill~ See ya, and I'll be praying for you~ :)

Thank you. I don't understand how ctb is considered a sin.. Im not really religious, but I would think there'd be no judgement in giving it our all - even in the end. We did the best we could with what we were dealt. Why suffer for that?

 

[EternalShore]

Thank you. I don't understand how ctb is considered a sin.. Im not really religious, but I would think there'd be no judgement in giving it our all - even in the end. We did the best we could with what we were dealt. Why suffer for that?

Within Christianity, it is considered murder of the self, however, for the reasons that you described and more, that's why I think God will be more understanding of it~ :) we did our best, but truly, the pains of the world can be so cruel to us here and even too much to bear any longer~ :(

 

[openBottomJeans]

It is considered murder of the self, however, for the reasons that you described and more, that's why I think God will be more understanding of it~ :) we did our best, but truly, the pains of the world can be so cruel to us here and even too much to bear any longer~ :(

When I see him .. I will cry. :( I tried my best. I'm sorry

 

[Worndown]

Society has created some taboos that only serve a small segment of the population. They are usually the ones that create them.

Suicide is self murder. What the hell...
As a concept, it is pretentious.
It denies self determination at the most base level.
It might make some happy to say it. Situation resolved. Problem over.

Fools.

 

[calebzz1]

When I see him .. I will cry. :( I tried my best. I'm sorry

Damn, that is really sad.

I really imagined the whole scenario as I'm a visual learner.

 

[Unknown21]

Love and peace to you man, i wish you the best in whatever you decide.

 

[Wolf Girl]

I wish you the best with whatever path you choose. There's no shame in waiting longer if you're not ready when the moment comes.

 

[Alexandra0]

I also go to the Temple sometimes. I wish you luck, whatever path you choose

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find peace from suffering, I wish you the best.

 

[Roadrunner]

Good luck finding the peace you crave

 

[openBottomJeans]

Thank you everyone

I feel weird today. As I always do on attempt days. I feel a certain ease in my mind. In my voice.. my walk.. I feel as if everything will be taken care of. I feel like everything will be okay…. Maybe that's god talking to me. I'm excited, yet scared. whooo boy.

 

[A Beautiful Walk]

Hope you find your peace

 

[openBottomJeans]

Hope you find your peace

Thank you

 

[Hangman.]

Good luck, I hope the best for you