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openBottomJeans

openBottomJeans

won’t see what might’ve been…
Jul 4, 2025
127
I went to church again today. Damn near cried through the whole service. Felt such a big lump in my throat.

I think the preacher knew something was up. He said he felt an energy that someone was in distress. He felt compelled to speak on it. Asked that we raise our hand to be prayed for.
I couldn't bring myself to raise my hand.

Never have I cried in church before. I can only imagine what will happen next week. How will the church handle this news :/

They had a message on their podium..

""
The flowers you left along the way still grace our path.
Each passing day, your song, your smile, forever still.
But you're just ahead; beyond the hill

In memory of all members who have departed this life - WE MISS YOU
""

I don't know why, but this poem really resonated with me.

May god rest my soul ❤️
 
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unluckysadness

Enlightened
Jul 9, 2025
1,241
Your message is very touching. I go to church sometimes too. If you believe in God, no doubt He will forgive you. I'm sorry you're suffering so much. Did you ask for a sign before going to chuch ? I believe in signs and afterlife. I don't want to influence your choice. I hope you can get a miracle in the next hours (I wish a miracle for myself too). If you want to PM I'm here. God bless you 🙏
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Illuminated
May 10, 2025
3,501
I wish you to find the peace you are looking for 🫂:heart:
 
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openBottomJeans

openBottomJeans

won’t see what might’ve been…
Jul 4, 2025
127
I wish you to find the peace you are looking for 🫂:heart:
Thank you friend
Your message is very touching. I go to church sometimes too. If you believe in God, no doubt He will forgive you. I'm sorry you're suffering so much. Did you ask for a sign before going to chuch ? I believe in signs and afterlife. I don't want to influence your choice. I hope you can get a miracle in the next hours (I wish a miracle for myself too). If you want to PM I'm here. God bless you 🙏
I've asked for signs before but I haven't this time around. Maybe on the way to my final destination tomorrow I'll see one. Whether it be a blue jay or a crow.. just somthing out of the ordinary.

I'm not really religious, but I do believe that somthing made us. That's all I can look upon. I guess I'll be finding out soon enough.
I'll be thinking of you too :)
 
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SeventhMoonMaster

SeventhMoonMaster

Ten million fireflies
Aug 2, 2025
4
I'm not usually a fan of poetry but stuff like this really catches my attention. Hope you will find your peace ❤️
 
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openBottomJeans

won’t see what might’ve been…
Jul 4, 2025
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EternalShore

EternalShore

Hardworking Lass who Dreams of Love~ 💕✨
Jun 9, 2023
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I wish you the best, openBottomJeans~ I'm sorry for whatever in your life has driven you here, but it's good to hear that church seems to have had a positive effect on you~ Sewer slide may be a sin, but remember that in Christianity, that Jesus, who is Lord, died for your sins, so that if one repents and believes in Him, they may go to Heaven in the afterlife~ :) May you join them beyond the hill~ See ya, and I'll be praying for you~ :)
 
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Warriorsfan

Member
Jun 15, 2023
180
How do you send heart to someone ?
I'm using cell phone.
 
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openBottomJeans

openBottomJeans

won’t see what might’ve been…
Jul 4, 2025
127
How do you send heart to someone ?
I'm using cell phone.
Hold down on the like button , the menu of emojis should pop up :)
I wish you the best, openBottomJeans~ I'm sorry for whatever in your life has driven you here, but it's good to hear that church seems to have had a positive effect on you~ Sewer slide may be a sin, but remember that in Christianity, that Jesus, who is Lord, died for your sins, so that if one repents and believes in Him, they may go to Heaven in the afterlife~ :) May you join them beyond the hill~ See ya, and I'll be praying for you~ :)
Thank you. I don't understand how ctb is considered a sin.. Im not really religious, but I would think there'd be no judgement in giving it our all - even in the end. We did the best we could with what we were dealt. Why suffer for that?
 
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EternalShore

EternalShore

Hardworking Lass who Dreams of Love~ 💕✨
Jun 9, 2023
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Thank you. I don't understand how ctb is considered a sin.. Im not really religious, but I would think there'd be no judgement in giving it our all - even in the end. We did the best we could with what we were dealt. Why suffer for that?
Within Christianity, it is considered murder of the self, however, for the reasons that you described and more, that's why I think God will be more understanding of it~ :) we did our best, but truly, the pains of the world can be so cruel to us here and even too much to bear any longer~ :(
 
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openBottomJeans

won’t see what might’ve been…
Jul 4, 2025
127
It is considered murder of the self, however, for the reasons that you described and more, that's why I think God will be more understanding of it~ :) we did our best, but truly, the pains of the world can be so cruel to us here and even too much to bear any longer~ :(
When I see him .. I will cry. :( I tried my best. I'm sorry
 
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Worndown

Worndown

Angelic
Mar 21, 2019
4,230
Society has created some taboos that only serve a small segment of the population. They are usually the ones that create them.

Suicide is self murder. What the hell...
As a concept, it is pretentious.
It denies self determination at the most base level.
It might make some happy to say it. Situation resolved. Problem over.

Fools.
 
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calebzz1

What is it like to see single and clearly?
Jan 6, 2024
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Unknown21

Enlightened
Apr 25, 2023
1,260
Love and peace to you man, i wish you the best in whatever you decide.
 
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Wolf Girl

Wolf Girl

"This place made me feel worthless"
Jun 12, 2024
652
I wish you the best with whatever path you choose. There's no shame in waiting longer if you're not ready when the moment comes.
 
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Alexandra_

Alexandra_

Don't Fear the Reaper
Sep 30, 2023
808
I also go to the Temple sometimes. I wish you luck, whatever path you choose
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,490
I hope you find peace from suffering, I wish you the best.
 
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Roadrunner

Specialist
Mar 18, 2024
376
Good luck finding the peace you crave
 
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openBottomJeans

won’t see what might’ve been…
Jul 4, 2025
127
Thank you everyone ❤️

I feel weird today. As I always do on attempt days. I feel a certain ease in my mind. In my voice.. my walk.. I feel as if everything will be taken care of. I feel like everything will be okay…. Maybe that's god talking to me. I'm excited, yet scared. whooo boy.
 
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A Beautiful Walk

A Beautiful Walk

Scary monster gonna get ya
Jul 1, 2025
11
Hope you find your peace
 
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