Tomorrow is going to be hard

[SpiderLink]

Tomorrow is going to be 3 years of getting help and not helping, I know it's just a day but it still hurts like I remember what happened so clearly that day :( I just want the pain to stop

 

[FuneralCry]

I think it's true that in this world any of the so called "help" that exists usually just makes things worse, nothing can ever change the reality of this existence where as humans we are just destined to suffer. But anyway I wish you the best, it's very much understandable wishing to be free from all the pain that existing brings, life is just too cruel.

 

[letsalllovelain:3]

I kinda feel the same as you. I've been going to therapy for almost a year and I still dream of successful CTB. I still feel pain of the past and sometimes the present and it can't stop.

 

[SpiderLink]

I think it's true that in this world any of the so called "help" that exists usually just makes things worse, nothing can ever change the reality of this existence where as humans we are just destined to suffer. But anyway I wish you the best, it's very much understandable wishing to be free from all the pain that existing brings, life is just too cruel.

Yeah

I kinda feel the same as you. I've been going to therapy for almost a year and I still dream of successful CTB. I still feel pain of the past and sometimes the present and it can't stop.

Yeah I feel u, your not alone in feeling this way. Sending u virtual hugs

 

[Catastrofe]

"Anniversaries" are the worst, the pain is felt twice. Send you hugs.
If I am not understanding wrong, you are going to terapy. Have you tried to talk about the fact that you are not feeling better at all after 3 years?

Also, I would suggest we live in a society that pushes us to be happy and just fine all the time, so it is supposed we overcome things after a certain amount of time. I wonder where this stupid stuff comes from. Besides tha everyone has his/her/them own flow, I believe there are some traumas that will just hurt and the best we can do is try to live with them.

 

[SpiderLink]

"Anniversaries" are the worst, the pain is felt twice. Send you hugs.
If I am not understanding wrong, you are going to terapy. Have you tried to talk about the fact that you are not feeling better at all after 3 years?

Also, I would suggest we live in a society that pushes us to be happy and just fine all the time, so it is supposed we overcome things after a certain amount of time. I wonder where this stupid stuff comes from. Besides tha everyone has his/her/them own flow, I believe there are some traumas that will just hurt and the best we can do is try to live with them.

I really appreciate it, and yeah, I will say the medications I'm on help, I'd be clearly a lot more unstable without them but still. My thoughts don't seem to change, I just don't get why I have to be so complicated. Everyone's saying that it's up to me and I know but it's like they r saying for me to handle this on my own and they've done their part, I just keep trying to explain but not many people r listening to me. It's like what's the point of receiving help if it's just up to me? I just don't seem to get anywhere no matter how hard I try

 

[Catastrofe]

I really appreciate it, and yeah, I will say the medications I'm on help, I'd be clearly a lot more unstable without them but still. My thoughts don't seem to change, I just don't get why I have to be so complicated. Everyone's saying that it's up to me and I know but it's like they r saying for me to handle this on my own and they've done their part, I just keep trying to explain but not many people r listening to me. It's like what's the point of receiving help if it's just up to me? I just don't seem to get anywhere no matter how hard I try

For sifferent reasons, I am stucked in a similar situation : my feelings have not even slightly changed over 5 years now, and this is where my suicidal thoughts xome from.
I am going to therapy, and I would like to share with you a short but enlightening conversation I had with the psichologist (which I wrote on this forum a couple of times). I have asked : "Why do aome people develop suicidal thoughts, and others, facing even harder situations, do not?". The answer : "Millions books have been written about, we still do not know". This answer was positive to me, because made me understand that sometimes we are fighting with something we have no control over and that is bigger than us. So, those people are not eight saying or thinking it is up to you. If you, or I, or anyone, could decide, we would decide to feel better. The point is that some things are bigger than any will power or decision - because these things are rational, pain is emotional.
I am trying to see these thoughts as a part of me that is trying to tell me something, and listen to that part.
Though, it is hard stuff.

 

[SpiderLink]

For sifferent reasons, I am stucked in a similar situation : my feelings have not even slightly changed over 5 years now, and this is where my suicidal thoughts xome from.
I am going to therapy, and I would like to share with you a short but enlightening conversation I had with the psichologist (which I wrote on this forum a couple of times). I have asked : "Why do aome people develop suicidal thoughts, and others, facing even harder situations, do not?". The answer : "Millions books have been written about, we still do not know". This answer was positive to me, because made me understand that sometimes we are fighting with something we have no control over and that is bigger than us. So, those people are not eight saying or thinking it is up to you. If you, or I, or anyone, could decide, we would decide to feel better. The point is that some things are bigger than any will power or decision - because these things are rational, pain is emotional.
I am trying to see these thoughts as a part of me that is trying to tell me something, and listen to that part.
Though, it is hard stuff.

Yeah, I'm sorry u r going through something similar but I'm glad we r not alone