tomorrow i CTB

[fay13]

that's it , I've reached my breaking point , now that i have been putting it off for almost a year i'm ready mentally and physically i finally have the determination to do it
i have my charcoal
i have my sleeping pills
and i have my ducktape
i know its more ideal to do it in a car or small tent but i don't have neither a car nor a tent , all i have is my small bedroom , i have been born schizophrenic with social anxiety , i haven't left the house for god knows how long
i really hope my attempt will be successful , i really hope i find happiness ,i will stay awake for 24hours (to make me more sleepy) i will tape my small room , prepare the charcoal and drink my sleeping pills , and when everything is ready i will CTB
i'm planning to put the charcoal in my taped bedroom (after all the smoke is gone) and then i go relax in bed , i hope i'll be already asleep by then and hopefully dead hours later

I'll give a short update tomorrow and if I'm not heard from afterwards then I most likely succeeded
wish me luck

this community really made me feel happy and feel like home
every poster in this website is very intelligent and one of the nicest persons i have met in my life , thank you so much , you have no clue how thankful i am

 

[CommitSudoku]

I'm sorry you've had such a hard time and that life has brought you to your breaking point. I hope you can find happiness and peace too. Best wishes whatever you decide to do, and good luck going forward.

 

[sharky]

I hope you find peace. Good luck pal.

 

[Dead Meat]

I'm sorry to see you go,I wish you a very pleasant journey and may you have Everlasting peace and tranquility beautiful soul

 

[Journeytoletgo]

I hope you find the peace desired

 

[Seafoam]

Take care! I hope you find what you're looking for.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that it has come to this. I know that this life can be unbearable when you are suffering so much. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[apoptosis]

Peace be with you, friend

 

[fastlife]

safe travels:hart:

 

[whywere]

I hope that you find the peace that you are looking for, and always here if things change.

All my best,

Walter

 

[YourNeighbor]

Do you live alone in a house? If not, you could be endangering others.

 

[bad luck]

Safe travels. Rest in peace

 

[Socaku]

Safe passages to your travel my friend.....Till we meet again.....

 

[Ligottian]

Best wishes, whatever you decide or do.

 

[sleepyghost]

Sending wishes of comfort and peace to you and those you may leave behind. No shame in changing your mind, we are here for you regardless.
(If you do go through with it, please be sure to make a sign so that others are not harmed by entering) <3