Tomorrow I CTB

[Revered]

It's been 2 weeks in the planning and tomorrow I CTB for certain. I have an ideal window and the determination now after putting it off for a year.
I wasn't going to make a thread here but then I figured it might be worth it to add to the SN success/failure statistics.
I'll be taking 25g in 50ml of water with another 20g drink prepped - no antiemetic on hand unfortunately.
I'll take 600-800mg of Ibuprofen an hour or so beforehand. No propranolol or benzos on hand.

I probably won't commentate on the experience when it comes time because I'd rather be relaxed in bed.
And plus it's probably for the best that no one traces my activity back to SS so I'll clear my browser history immediately before.

I'm aiming for 11AM-1PM EST tomorrow (Friday), and no one should find me until earliest 3/4PM, latest 8PM. Originally I was going to CTB in a hotel, but I'm dead broke atm so at home will have to suffice.
I'll give a short update tomorrow and if I'm not heard from afterwards then I most likely succeeded. Wish me luck.

 

[Niirvana]

Will you be alone in your house? Whatever happens I wish you the best and farewell

 

[Revered]

Will you be alone in your house? Whatever happens I wish you the best and farewell

I will. I have 2 family members that'll be out of the house until around 4 to 8PM (varies). Hoping all goes according to plan.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry for all the suffering that has brought you to this point. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[Muse]

Wish you peace and comfort.

 

[Al_stargate]

Sorry about your situation. I'm not familiar with SN but are you sure it's gonna get the job done in 4 hours? I mean, not sure of the consequences if they manage to bring you back. You know, be careful to not put yourself in even worst of a situation.

 

[Revered]

Sorry about your situation. I'm not familiar with SN but are you sure it's gonna get the job done in 4 hours? I mean, not sure of the consequences if they manage to bring you back. You know, be careful to not put yourself in even worst of a situation.

Stan's Guide list passing between 40 mins to 4 hrs, but I've heard 8 hrs before - not sure where that's from (PPH?). Unconsciousness should occur around 20 mins or so. I'd prefer a larger window of time but for the foreseeable future this is the best opportunity I have. Appreciate the concern.

 

[TheWood]

Whatever your final choice is, we'll accept it. If you change your mind you'll always be welcome, otherwise I hope you'll find the peace you are looking for.

 

[indigomoon]

Just remember that it's never too late to change your mind. No harm done and no one will think less of you. If you need to talk you can always message me. I personally hope you change your mind but that's just me.

 

[Of The Universe]

Good luck.

 

[Feeding Pigeons]

Good luck, I'll see you down the road.

 

[fastlife]

safe travels

 

[Revered]

I've decided I'll try to commentate on the experience as it's happening, at least for the start. I'll use SS incognito and have my PC auto shutdown at a set time, which should clear any trace of SS from my PC. Only a few more hours...

 

[AnestheticVoid]

I've decided I'll try to commentate on the experience as it's happening, at least for the start. I'll use SS incognito and have my PC auto shutdown at a set time, which should clear any trace of SS from my PC. Only a few more hours...

How are you feeling about it right now?

 

[Revered]

How are you feeling about it right now?

Anxious. But not as anxious as I thought I'd be right now. Only got 5 hours of sleep last night so feel a bit tired as well. I think today's the day.

 

[Judy Garland]

We're here for support whichever you choose to do.

 

[Lost Magic]

God Speed!

 

[Revered]

The fasting mixed with anxiety has my stomach hurting already. I'll probably vomit but I'm still going for it. Maybe another hour, still waiting for family to leave.

 

[AlexKy]

Good luck on your journey! Hope all goes well and painless!

 

[Revered]

Whelp, I'm ready.
The taste is horrible.
vomiting

 

[Shu]

Remember OP you can call for help if you need to.

 

[Niirvana]

View attachment 89061Whelp, I'm ready.
The taste is horrible.
vomiting

How r u feeling?

 

[Judy Garland]

Are you still with us? I'm going to plug my nose and take it like it's a nasty tasting medication (it pretty much is). You know plug your nose and hold your breath kinda thing.

 

[fastlife]

has he gone from us? or is he still with us?

 

[sleepyghost]

Are you still with us? Sending love and warmth to you and your family either way <3