This could finally be it. I have my SN and I'm just waiting for the courage to use it. I lost the girl of my dreams yesterday... she did not feel the same way as I do. I loved her so much and she was my entire world. She was all I had... one last shining star in a dark night but now it's pitch black.
I've lost all hope... I cried for help for so long yet no one answered. Even a psychiatrist said that he couldn't really do anything for me. This girl cured my depression... she made me so happy... even my therapist signed off on me saying I was better and a completely different person. Now it's gone and I'm laying in my bed again with nothing to look forward to. My phone doesn't light up anymore because no one cares about me. I feel like I'm alone in the world and that I'll never have any friends... no one will ever love me.
People say 'focus on yourself' but I realized that it really doesn't matter how good I look, how skinny I am... thanks to this girl, I started working out and I look 100x better than before. I tried dating apps and it made absolutely no difference... no one wants to talk to me.
I loved her so much and I can't believe shes gone. I will never find someone like her again and all my hopes and dreams were destroyed. My personality sucks and no one likes it. They say that there is someone for everyone but there is no one for me.
It feels like a higher power is torturing me and the biggest fuck you is that I'm going to die alone, too. No one to hold my hand or comfort me as I breathe my final breaths. I truly wish I could be happy... I truly wish I was good enough... but I'm not.
I've lost all hope... I cried for help for so long yet no one answered. Even a psychiatrist said that he couldn't really do anything for me. This girl cured my depression... she made me so happy... even my therapist signed off on me saying I was better and a completely different person. Now it's gone and I'm laying in my bed again with nothing to look forward to. My phone doesn't light up anymore because no one cares about me. I feel like I'm alone in the world and that I'll never have any friends... no one will ever love me.
People say 'focus on yourself' but I realized that it really doesn't matter how good I look, how skinny I am... thanks to this girl, I started working out and I look 100x better than before. I tried dating apps and it made absolutely no difference... no one wants to talk to me.
I loved her so much and I can't believe shes gone. I will never find someone like her again and all my hopes and dreams were destroyed. My personality sucks and no one likes it. They say that there is someone for everyone but there is no one for me.
It feels like a higher power is torturing me and the biggest fuck you is that I'm going to die alone, too. No one to hold my hand or comfort me as I breathe my final breaths. I truly wish I could be happy... I truly wish I was good enough... but I'm not.
