Discussion ...Today is the day you CTB, what do you want to do before you go forever?

[JadedBeing]

I would get some Chinese food. Go to my favorite lake with my bike and just lay there and feel the Sun on my skin while listening to my favorite music one last time. I won't say goodbye to anyone. I did that in my last attempt and i failed. I would drink beers and smoke cigarettes, haven't had alcohol in 8 years. When it get's dark and no one is around anymore, i hop in my paddle boat and swim to the middle of the lake. There i would do it. My method will probably be fentanyl OD mixed with Benzos and the alcohol before.

 

[itsgone2]

I'd just clean up some. Or maybe not, just get it over with.

 

[Hiro Uchiha]

Cross a local river to get to a forest at night. Walk a boardwalk through the forest. Climb up the observation tower, camp there overnight. Wake up and look over the forest and sea. Take some nice photos. Take my amtiemetics. Maybe schedule some emails, maybe not. Take SN and smoke my last cigarette. I haven't smoke for years.

 

[LostZombie]

Just drive, around the city and just jam out to the radio for a few hours. Play on old nostalgic game, and just think of the times before it all went wrong. Have a good meal that you had as a kid, and drink it with some pure water. Just pure, filtered delicious water. I then put on something cozy and then take my SN and go to bed.

 

[EmptyBottle]

I will probably chat online, post to TFES as well as here, and browse the web / YT... probably post a final entry to the diary, make a classic goodbye post, logout and clear browsing history as well as lock my encrypted downloads folder (probably should uninstall firefox and open the ash methods file on Tor, for some misdirection to protect SaSu)... and then try night night again, this time not skipping any steps.

This post reads like part of an interactive game "Today will be your last day", but instead of walking around some 3D world, I'm typing this... and it probably won't actually be my last day.

 

[JadedBeing]

I will probably chat online, post to TFES as well as here, and browse the web / YT... probably post a final entry to the diary, make a classic goodbye post, logout and clear browsing history as well as lock my encrypted downloads folder (probably should uninstall firefox and open the ash methods file on Tor, for some misdirection to protect SaSu)... and then try night night again, this time not skipping any steps.

This post reads like part of an interactive game "Today will be your last day", but instead of walking around some 3D world, I'm typing this... and it probably won't actually be my last day.

What is TFES and night night ?

 

[EmptyBottle]

What is TFES and night night ?

TFES = The Flat Earth Society, where there is a cool WereNPC game going on, and registration is open until october 21st or so. Number game, Letters Game and Emoji game can be played anytime tho.

Spoiler: night night

The "night-night" method mega thread.

Hey everyone, Been talking to a lot of people in the chat and trying to explain this method, and one user wanted me to make a post about it, so here goes everything. We're going after a classic idea of using a blood choke, except, it will be against ourselves. In the privacy of our own...

sanctioned-suicide.net

 

[AuraByte]

I'd like to sit on the beach.

Watch the waves and the sun set one last time.

 

[FuneralCry]

I don't wish to do anything other than be at true permanent peace from the terrible, dreadful and torturous abomination of existence, all I want is to never suffer again and no matter what I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather all I want is to be gone.

I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this existence I always saw as a mistake and for me existence really is the problem, I'll just always see it as an abomination to suffer in this cruel, futile and deeply undesirable existence, I always wish I could erase this existence that just causes harm and suffering.

 

[Dumbass]

go out with my friends. i dont like the idea of eternal anything but the one exception would be to just be there with my friends forever

 

[doomedforsure]

ill just take a shower. drink some whiskey.

 

[flimsythrowaway234]

In a fantasy world I'd clean my apartment, organise or pack up my belongings, maybe write a note or unofficial will. Make the post-process easier for those remaining.

However in reality I'll probably just spend my final day as any other, wasting time on the internet and hating myself until suddenly managing to do it in a surge of energy and will, on impulse.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

i wouldn't want to voluntarily and consciously do anything for many reasons.

anything i do in the future i'll never remember after i'm dead. Death is non-existence forever. there won't be any me after i die. it will be like before i was born . imo every human life is a tiny blip then obliterated forever as if they never existed in the first place.

i wouldn't want to consciously do anything in this hell and in this evil imposition. i consider me consciously doing anything condoning this hell and evil imposition.

many more reasons

 

[Michelstaedter]

I wouldn't do anything, maybe just enjoy a few things like listening to music, taking a few shots of mezcal, tequila or something like that, enough to not be so drunk, but not so sober so as not to "fall back" or become melancholic (with enough alcohol my sadness goes away). I would look at photos of my beloved rabbits and feel happy that "I will finally be" with them, no more life without their company.

I don't know, maybe I wouldn't do many things, but it would definitely be the happiest day of my life

 

[Irisse]

I plan to clean my apartment a few days before the act. On the day itself, I need to perform personal hygiene. Since there is a six-hour fasting regime needed for SN, I might eat some good food six hours before I take it. While SN is working it's charm, I will probably listen to music.

 

[eggsausagerice]

ride my bike and read chiikawa comics. i would also want to roll down a hill or go to the aquarium.

 

[Kanoh]

Honestly nothing out of ordinary. My plan is to take SN in a hotel (no other viable option for me) so I'll just watch TV and nap.

 

[Forveleth]

Nothing. I am ready to be dead.

 

[hmnow]

Just a normal day

Go to work
Come home
Have dinner
Do dishes
Hang the dish towels
Hang myself.

 

[Thesaxmachine]

Just get on with it all, I just want to be dead.

 

[purpp37]

indulging the the last pleasures I can even more than my usual hedonistic self, to finally try and feel before I succumb to my anhedonia afterwards and get it over with.

 

[3FailedAttemptss]

Wouldn't do anything special— post my goodbyes and attempt ✌︎('ω')✌︎

 

[Last_sunset]

I would say goodbye to Someone I used to know but haven't talked to in ages, then watch Yt or read on this site with my cat until I die.

 

[telekon]

i'd order skip the dishes without limits

then maybe say a prayer

 

[Roadrunner]

Drop my dog off at my son's (under the pretence that he's to watch her for only a couple days), get a motor and pestle to grind up my benzos,, a couple bottles of water, then hike to my spot in the forest. Other than that nothing more exciting than knowing this terrible depression and anxiety will soon be over.

 

[Kitsuné_]

i'd order skip the dishes without limits

Thats the spirit .

For me nothing special. The less special things, the better. No special food, party or whatever. I want to be like a robot. Zero feelings that could ground me too much and make me rethink. Perhaps a small walk in the forest only

 

[telekon]

Thats the spirit .

For me nothing special. The less special things, the better. No special food, party or whatever. I want to be like a robot. Zero feelings that could ground me too much and make me rethink. Perhaps a small walk in the forest only

oh hell, i don't think i would rethink it. ordering on skipthedishes makes me instantly suicidal. like i just paid 50$ for a burger and i know there is someone on the other end laughing their asses off that i'm too lazy to cook tonight.