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headspin

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Apr 8, 2022
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I have my SN. I did the blood test, it reacted immediately. I have a hotel room booked. I have an atypical antipsychotic for an AE. I have propranolol and ativan...and the various other things suggested by Stan. I am scared, but I have thought through this for a long time. Its not impulsive.
Wish me luck, if I fail, everything will just be exponentially worse.
 
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DPJ187

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Apr 14, 2022
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Good luck to you. I wish you peace and happiness
 
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Al_stargate

Al_stargate

I was once a pretty angel
Mar 4, 2022
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Sorry about your pain and suffering. Wish you well in whatever happens, as they say here. If you'd like to talk a bit, I'm here.
 
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headspin

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Sorry about your pain and suffering. Wish you well in whatever happens, as they say here. If you'd like to talk a bit, I'm here.
Thank you
 
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LastWhisper

LastWhisper

Who cares if I'm drunk?
Oct 29, 2019
223
Good luck mate! Wish you peace.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I'm sorry for all the suffering that has brought you to this point. I hope you find relief from pain in whatever happens.
 
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Grim reaper

Grim reaper

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Apr 20, 2022
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However, there are many failures with Sodium Nitrite, but I wish you the best.
 
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Starylain001

Body is a prison for the soul
Apr 10, 2022
70
However, there are many failures with Sodium Nitrite, but I wish you the best.
These failures come mostly from those, who were found by others during the attempt.
 
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Lalari!!

Lalari!!

Fantasy Princess
Apr 17, 2022
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I wish you a peaceful journey.
 
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NearlyIrrelevantCake

NearlyIrrelevantCake

The Cake Is A Lie
Aug 12, 2021
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I hope you find peace.
 
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headspin

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Apr 8, 2022
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However, there are many failures with Sodium Nitrite, but I wish you the best.
There have been plenty of successes.
These failures come mostly from those, who were found by others during the attempt.
I am getting nervous that someone will hear something from my hotel room ( gasping? weird noises I might make before completely shutting down?) and call for help. But the world seems pretty oblivious, and hopefully that will not be the case. Hopefuly it will be quiet too.
These failures come mostly from those, who were found by others during the attempt.
Why did it make it into the PPH if it is so fail prevailent?
 
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its-about-time

its-about-time

nope
Mar 19, 2022
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You deserve so much better, and please don't be afraid to change your mind. I'm sorry you're here.
 
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headspin

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Apr 8, 2022
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You deserve so much better, and please don't be afraid to change your mind. I'm sorry you're here.
Thank you. I'm sorry I'm hear too. At one point I thought I deserved better too. However , life doesn't work that way. I am so tired of myself, honestly. The torment in my head never ceases.
 
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Muse

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Hope everything will be ok whatever happens.
 
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DPJ187

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Apr 14, 2022
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Take time and chill, a failed attempt is upsetting. Get the weed going and chill, get some sleep. Tomorrow is a different day
 
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headspin

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Take time and chill, a failed attempt is upsetting. Get the weed going and chill, get some sleep. Tomorrow is a different day
I am already in my hotel room. I don't smoke weed. I have been telling myself tomorrow is a new day for 6 months. It never is. Its the same mental hell I am trapped in. However, I am happy for you, that that mindset is working.
 
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Judy Garland

Judy Garland

HoHum
Mar 23, 2022
826
Thank you. I'm sorry I'm hear too. At one point I thought I deserved better too. However , life doesn't work that way. I am so tired of myself, honestly. The torment in my head never ceases.
I'm tired too. I wondered about the gasping noises too with my neighbors...but then you have to remember, this is the same society that stands there and either does nothing, or films people getting robbed, beaten up etc. Nobody does anything to help their fellow man. Of course, let's hope not in our cases.
 
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WorthlessTrash

Worthless
Apr 19, 2022
2,429
Why did it make it into the PPH if it is so fail prevailent?
Because of all of the other factors such as potency, accessibility, etc. When not intervened, it is a sure fire death apparently.
 
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Flying Away

A listening ear is better than suffering in silenc
Nov 20, 2021
393
Peace be the journey
 
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locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
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I understand your tiredness. If your journey is meant to be, may it be a peaceful one for you.
 
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ClownMe

Don't Cry for Me, I'm Already Dead
Apr 7, 2021
20,561
Wishing you peace.
 
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Glowarm

F*ck everyone and everything
Apr 8, 2022
673
Wishing you luck whether you go through with it or not.
 
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Kismet

Kismet

life is pointless
Feb 16, 2022
141
Wishing you luck and hope you're able to find your peace🙏🙏. I'm a bit curious why things will be worse if you don't so if you want to talk, I'm available. If you change your mind, we will still be here. I'm in ohio eastern time. ❤️❤️
 
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not-2-b-the-answer

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Mar 23, 2018
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Wishing you peace and love. Rest well. :heart::hug::heart::hug::heart:
 
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Judy Garland

HoHum
Mar 23, 2022
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Headspin, peace be with you always.
 
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Then_Tomorrow_4099

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wishing you peace
 
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Shu

Shu

As above, So Below.
Jan 21, 2022
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Rip
 
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I hope you're in a better place my friend, I miss you. R.I.P 🙏🏼
 
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