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ketopia

ketopia

Missing my Mom
Jun 4, 2025
84
It's 8 am now, I have lots to do today.

Taking my cat to a vet appointment this morning, have some cleaning to do, and then im getting lunch with my friend which will be my last meal.

I have a hotel room to go to after, where I'll go for a swim for awhile and then go set up the room. I am bringing a notebook to write as much as I can to get my final thoughts down on paper.

Then, after midnight, im going to take my SN and pass while looking at a mountain view.

I know i have panicked a lot but ultimately I feel good about my decision to leave after a couple good days. I want to feel peaceful, warm. And happy. Why wait until things get so bad again that it's impulsive and reckless? Everything is perfect for tonight.

I wont say im excited, but I feel strong and safe. Solid. Ready.

Thank you to everyone here for your support and advice the last couple weeks
 
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bankai

bankai

Visionary
Mar 16, 2025
2,340
That sounds nice and seems like a well thought out plan. I've enjoyed your posts here. I hope everything is peaceful and you find the courage if you decide to go through with it.

If you decide to back out, there's no shame in it.


I hope you're reunited with your mother at the end of it all.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,508
I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.
 
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FadingSnowFake

FadingSnowFake

Enlightened
Nov 25, 2024
1,822
That is a lot to do for the day, you are strong and I'm glad that you can feel safe. Wishing you all the best as you deserve and sending love and hugs your way. Thanks for being a caring member, you know where to find us if needed.
 
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SVEN

SVEN

I Wish I'd Been a Jester Too.
Apr 3, 2023
2,802
Every good wish, whatever the outcome. Go with our best wishes, or return to a welcome.
 
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DTA

DTA

Desperado
May 3, 2025
100
Best of luck to you! May you find peace.
 
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lemonandcapers

lemonandcapers

I Wanna End Me (she/her)
Jun 7, 2025
109
It's 8 am now, I have lots to do today.

Taking my cat to a vet appointment this morning, have some cleaning to do, and then im getting lunch with my friend which will be my last meal.

I have a hotel room to go to after, where I'll go for a swim for awhile and then go set up the room. I am bringing a notebook to write as much as I can to get my final thoughts down on paper.

Then, after midnight, im going to take my SN and pass while looking at a mountain view.

I know i have panicked a lot but ultimately I feel good about my decision to leave after a couple good days. I want to feel peaceful, warm. And happy. Why wait until things get so bad again that it's impulsive and reckless? Everything is perfect for tonight.

I wont say im excited, but I feel strong and safe. Solid. Ready.

Thank you to everyone here for your support and advice the last couple weeks
I wish you nothing but the best and hope you are able to find the peace and relief you are searching for
 
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ketopia

ketopia

Missing my Mom
Jun 4, 2025
84
That sounds nice and seems like a well thought out plan. I've enjoyed your posts here. I hope everything is peaceful and you find the courage if you decide to go through with it.

If you decide to back out, there's no shame in it.


I hope you're reunited with your mother at the end of it all.
Thank you, me too </3
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
13,421
Good luck! I hope you find peace!
 
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UnrulyNightmare

UnrulyNightmare

Wanderer
Jul 3, 2024
470
I'm sorry for what you went through.
I read some of it in a different post, and it sounds absolutely horrible. 🫂

I hope you'll find the peace you want ❤
If you change your mind we're here. Otherwise safe travels ❤️
 
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Cauliflour

Cauliflour

I'm the doodler, I make terrible doodles.
Mar 24, 2025
724
You have a cat? Does it have a secure future home?
 
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Cauliflour

Cauliflour

I'm the doodler, I make terrible doodles.
Mar 24, 2025
724
Yes they do
oh okay. I was worried for a sec because I think it's cruel to commit suicide if one has pets but you seemed to have thought things through.
 
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Doll Steak

Doll Steak

Student
May 31, 2025
176
I wish I could give you a hug, I'm sorry it would have to come to this.
 
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kitkat9234

Arcanist
Nov 27, 2024
477
Wishing you peace.
 
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gothbird

gothbird

𝙿𝚘𝚎𝚝 𝙶𝚒𝚛𝚕
Mar 16, 2025
507
Whatever's waiting out there, I hope it's quiet. I hope it's kind.

See you in the stars.
 
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ketopia

ketopia

Missing my Mom
Jun 4, 2025
84
1000003513 my happy and social girl. She will get to be around other cats
 
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Alexandra_

Alexandra_

Don't Fear the Reaper
Sep 30, 2023
811
View attachment 169376my happy and social girl. She will get to be around other cats
She is a miracle, but she will miss you.
I am glad that your last days were good. I hope I will feel the same on my last day. You are very brave. Good luck and all the best
 
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Britney Spears

Britney Spears

toxic
Jan 4, 2025
542
Rest in peace, little angel, a big hug.🥹🫶❤️‍🩹
 
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Mary Janex

Mary Janex

Probably dissociated
Apr 2, 2025
67
Good luck. See you on the other side my friend :heart:
 
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ketopia

ketopia

Missing my Mom
Jun 4, 2025
84
It's 1 pm now. Lunch plans turned into dinner plans so I might have to wait until 4 am or simply not fast the full 8 hours. Honestly the accounts I've heard of people not fasting seem to be fine, if anything less burning and nausea. We will see
 
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opheliaoveragain

opheliaoveragain

Global Mod | Anorexic Junkie
Jun 2, 2024
2,195
It's 1 pm now. Lunch plans turned into dinner plans so I might have to wait until 4 am or simply not fast the full 8 hours. Honestly the accounts I've heard of people not fasting seem to be fine, if anything less burning and nausea. We will see
I would recommend not deviating from the pph and guides on here re: protocol. the fast is included for good reason and 8 hours, id say is the minimum. if you have any doubts, it's ok to wait. the option isn't going anywhere. we're here for you 💕💕
 
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Ihatemonday

Ihatemonday

Member
May 10, 2025
32
Yours sounds like a peaceful last day, and I hope you can get the most out of every moment. Whatever the outcome shall be, I hope it will bring you peace. Sending lots of love :heart:
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Illuminated
May 10, 2025
3,517
good luck
wish you the best
hope you find the peace you deserve ❤️‍🩹
 
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lonergirl_26

Student
Sep 1, 2024
159
Wishing you the best of luck!
I hope you find peace ❤️
 
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karakoltriste

karakoltriste

I hate psychiatry
Apr 30, 2025
259
Peace and love ❤️‍🩹
 
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Galahad

Seeking…
Mar 21, 2024
277
Do keep posting here and please also come straight and tell us if you change your mind.

Don't feel pressured into doing it because you posted here.

If the time doesn't feel right don't do it.
 
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Galahad

Seeking…
Mar 21, 2024
277
It's 1 pm now. Lunch plans turned into dinner plans so I might have to wait until 4 am or simply not fast the full 8 hours. Honestly the accounts I've heard of people not fasting seem to be fine, if anything less burning and nausea. We will see
I'm thinking about you, it being 04:22 in your time some.

Much love 🖤
 
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gothbird

gothbird

𝙿𝚘𝚎𝚝 𝙶𝚒𝚛𝚕
Mar 16, 2025
507
Just checking in. How are you doing? I hope you're at peace, either way.
 
bankai

bankai

Visionary
Mar 16, 2025
2,340
She's not been online since,

Rest in peace @ketopia
 
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