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[bluegodism]

and i'm calm. happy. fine.

the only thing i would like is to die while talking to the person i love most, my girlfriend. this probably won't happen....

she is an incredible person and i try to understand her side of wanting me not to die... but i want to be with her when that happens and it hurts me a lot to know that i can't tell her otherwise she will do everything to make it wrong.

in fact, i don't know whether to speak or not. if any of you have a suggestion on what to do, it would be greatly appreciated.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I wish you all the best with your plan. I'm sorry I have no suggestions how you could achieve that talking with your gf while dying and her not grieving. That's how I understand it.

What's you method if I may ask?

Good luck and I hope you find peace.

 

[whats_the_point]

The best thing you can do for her is to not talk to her when you die. It is going to be very traumatic for her and of course, like you pointed out she would do everything in her power to make you stop. If you've made the decision and you're a 100% sure about it, I wish you best of luck and peace forever.

 

[bluegodism]

I wish you all the best with your plan. I'm sorry I have no suggestions how you could achieve that talking with your gf while dying and her not grieving. That's how I understand it.

What's you method if I may ask?

Good luck and I hope you find peace.

my method is sn. i don't know whether to tell her or not, but if i tell i'll probably turn off my cell phone.. idk

 

[Praestat_Mori]

my method is sn. i don't know whether to tell her or not, but if i tell i'll probably turn off my cell phone.. idk

My honest opinion: I wouldn't tell anyone unless you want to risk to be disturbed and rescued. As hard as this may sound it depends on how serious you are with your personal decision to CTB.

 

[Doemu]

My best wishes for your travel. It's nice to hear that you are calm. Hope you find peace

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best of luck in your plans, I hope that you find the freedom you search for.

 

[Unknown21]

Goodbye and I wish you all the luck. I used to see you here and there on this site, and I know that you are a brave person. It saddens me to see you go, but I know that you will find your eternal peace in this way, just like me. I will see you on the other side (if there is one, of course).

 

[4everDone]

and i'm calm. happy. fine.

the only thing i would like is to die while talking to the person i love most, my girlfriend. this probably won't happen....

she is an incredible person and i try to understand her side of wanting me not to die... but i want to be with her when that happens and it hurts me a lot to know that i can't tell her otherwise she will do everything to make it wrong.

in fact, i don't know whether to speak or not. if any of you have a suggestion on what to do, it would be greatly appreciated.

Give her a call and say something nice to her, but in a tone that would subliminally indicate your intentions. Then departure.
This way she will remember the importance of your words that will remain with her.
Or don't, it depends how she will perceive memories of you afterwards.

 

[CoffeeN]

I will say for the last time surprise her with a nice small date , and at a moment when she starts talking record her voice secretly. Remember to write Letter to her describing it's not her fault + u don't want her to ctb too. You can give her that on ur date indirectly. Choose ur words precisely so that she doesn't realise, .u can use the recorded voice later

 

[Dliena]

Peace be with you forevermore OP and goodbye.

 

[sadcausebad]

I understand what you mean, I wouldn't tell your girlfriend what you're doing. I think you should draft a letter and let her know how you feel, it be good to remind her that you do love her but you're at peace now.

I wish you luck

 

[Deleted member 65988]

Leaving a letter for her would provide some closure and clarity over your decision, I'd just hide my intent as much as possible. All the best OP and I hope you find peace.

 

[logi3535]

definitely think you should write her a note somewhere she'd easily be able to find it after you pass away, closure might not matter to someone who's going to end up in the afterlife but it's still caring to be so thoughtful of her otherwise

it hurts to see so many people feeling stuck with this dillema while they're still in a loving relationship, so i hope it works out for the best for you, in life or in death...

 

[MiMif]

I hope you find peace.

But if you end up backing out that's perfectly fine too. Make sure your comfortable with your choice
I hope you find peace.

But if you end up backing out that's perfectly fine too. Make sure your comfortable with your choice

 

[bluegodism]

updates: i already have my sn package. it's going to happen tonight. it's now 5:12 pm in my time zone, 5 more to go

about my girlfriend, i'm going to write a text. i'm not going to talk about killing myself but it will be my way of saying goodbye.