 
		
				
				
			mizumono
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- Aug 9, 2023
- 26
I know it's such a cliche to be worse on your birthday, but it happens every year. No one remembers, and the few people who do message you are the ones my mom asked, which is just my brother and my SIL. No one else… 
And I see how everyone else is like on their birthday… everyone posting pictures with them, writing lovely things, planning parties. And i know it's unfair to compare but i never had a bday party after i was like 10. I have zero friends, not even distant ones that could wish me happy bday today. I truly doesn't matter if i'm alive or not. There's no one to celebrate the fact that i am alive, no one that wants to be with me, to know me. I guess this is my last one, because there's no way in hell i'm suffering through another one, not even suffering actually, i guess just… not existing.
If you just had a bday or is going to, i hope you know you're not alone, and feel my hug through the screen, because it's the most awful feeling knowing there's no one there for you. Thank you for reading my rant
	
		
			
		
		
	
			
			And I see how everyone else is like on their birthday… everyone posting pictures with them, writing lovely things, planning parties. And i know it's unfair to compare but i never had a bday party after i was like 10. I have zero friends, not even distant ones that could wish me happy bday today. I truly doesn't matter if i'm alive or not. There's no one to celebrate the fact that i am alive, no one that wants to be with me, to know me. I guess this is my last one, because there's no way in hell i'm suffering through another one, not even suffering actually, i guess just… not existing.
If you just had a bday or is going to, i hope you know you're not alone, and feel my hug through the screen, because it's the most awful feeling knowing there's no one there for you. Thank you for reading my rant
 
				
		 
			 
		 
		 
		 
		 
		 
		

 
		
 ! Sending you 1000 hugs and kisses over the phone. I'm sorry you feel like this on your birthday, trust me you're not alone! I hate hearing everyone's excitement for their birthdays and all their big plans, it's difficult to hear!  My birthday is soon, I pray I don't have to suffer another boring and depressing birthday, I may do another attempt on my birthday, the thought of another year terrifies me! But I hope you did something that made you happy or had some cake
! Sending you 1000 hugs and kisses over the phone. I'm sorry you feel like this on your birthday, trust me you're not alone! I hate hearing everyone's excitement for their birthdays and all their big plans, it's difficult to hear!  My birthday is soon, I pray I don't have to suffer another boring and depressing birthday, I may do another attempt on my birthday, the thought of another year terrifies me! But I hope you did something that made you happy or had some cake 

 
		 
		 
		 
		 
		 
		