Venting Today is my birthday and I was supposed to be dead

[Catch-22]

Today is my birthday and I was not supposed to still be here I was supposed to be dead..in bed crying.. another year has passed

 

[Timothy7dff]

So sorry. Life sucks, then you die. At least you're in good company on this site.

 

[razahcareca27]

yesterday was mine bro. relax, you can do your way when you'll be thinking about it with more pragmatism.

 

[AbsentMindedHuman]

Im sorry you havent been able to find a peaceful release from this cruel world. You are strong and will find the strength,

 

[wastingpotential]

Birthdays are so hard to get through, I understand you. I hope your day is as calm as it can be and pain subsides for a little while.

 

[Catch-22]

Birthdays are so hard to get through, I understand you. I hope your day is as calm as it can be and pain subsides for a little while.

Thank you I appreciate it

Im sorry you havent been able to find a peaceful release from this cruel world. You are strong and will find the strength,

I have the strength and a plan to leave I just need the time to be alone and then I'm gone. Thank you though

So sorry. Life sucks, then you die. At least you're in good company on this site.

For the most part this is the only site I go to anymore.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope that you eventually find the freedom you search for, I understand that it's so dreadful suffering in this existence.

 

[iloverachel]

Happy birthday, even though it is not really a "happy" birthday. Most birthdays for me are also dreadful. I hope you feel better soon and find peace

 

[chestnut]

Happy Birthday, still. Holidays and birthdays are the hardest for me, exactly for that reason. May you find relief from your suffering and peace.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

!! Happy Birthday !!

Y r u supposed to be dead?

I can relate, birthdays are terrible sometimes when another years has passed and another year is ahead of us with no hope and all that.

 

[rozeske]

I'm sorry you are feeling this way. The days leading up to my last birthday were so dreadful, I never wanted to be around to see it but it has come and gone with a single person having remembered it. Happy birthday day to you anyways, even if it doesn't feel like one

 

[Sakura.]

Im sorry you havent been able to find a peaceful release from this cruel world. You are strong and will find the strength,

Today is your birthday! Happy birthday! I hope you will feel happy someday!

 

[burninghill]

This happened to me in April. I told myself there was no way I'd let myself live until 20 and here I am.

 

[Catch-22]

Today is my birthday and I was not supposed to still be here I was supposed to be dead..in bed crying.. another year has passed

All right unfortunately I am still here because trying to hold out hope and no chance of being alone. Time is ticking and I will be pretty much crippled my arms and I will not be able to take care of myself and this was not the situation when I joined or even 2 years ago but it is now I need to get moving. I'm just trying to figure out if I can transfer my SN to Ziploc bags have it pre-measured so I can just put it in the water because if I have any time alone it's only going to be a couple hours so if I get that done that will be half the anxiety. Anybody want to chime in on maybe like a week or two beforehand transferring it to Ziploc bags getting the air out. I've had my SN for 2 years and I have fresh antiemetics Metro

This happened to me in April. I told myself there was no way I'd let myself live until 20 and here I am.

All right unfortunately I am still here because trying to hold out hope and no chance of being alone. Time is ticking and I will be pretty much crippled my arms and I will not be able to take care of myself and this was not the situation when I joined or even 2 years ago but it is now I need to get moving. I'm just trying to figure out if I can transfer my SN to Ziploc bags have it pre-measured so I can just put it in the water because if I have any time alone it's only going to be a couple hours so if I get that done that will be half the anxiety. Anybody want to chime in on maybe like a week or two beforehand transferring it to Ziploc bags getting the air out. I've had my SN for 2 years and I have fresh antiemetics Metro

Sometimes leaving is much easier said than done. Hugs

Today is your birthday! Happy birthday! I hope you will feel happy someday!

Thank you! Hugs

 

[scp4514]

Today is my birthday and I was not supposed to still be here I was supposed to be dead..in bed crying.. another year has passed

You just have one more mission, Yossarian.