Today, i say goodbye to life

[4skin4days]

This will be my only post. After 9½ years of battling with depression, and dealing with the recent adversities of living out of my car, I've decided that today, I will breathe my last. I'm going with that there "Night Night" method (as folk here comically call it) of asphyxia, an idea I came across a couple years before elsewhere but augmented due to some suggestions I saw here.

Assuming that you, fair reader, cannot be bothered to look at another life story, let me sum up my rationale in something I told my friend a few weeks ago:



So, there you have it. I will get some chocolate milk, go on a bad-ass run, take a long fucking shower, and probably play Dwarf Fortress, Pokemon Pearl, and Kirby SSU in my final hours. Have a quote from a rapper i never got into on a song I didn't really like but has a pretty poignant chorus:

"Fuck the world; don't ask me for shit // Everything you get, you gotta work hard for it"
-- Method Man

It's a very hard life we all lead. I genuinely hope you souls can find a way to make life work out for y'all, but the beyond calls me, and this day I will answer it, pass over what will.

P.S., if any babes wanna smooch in western NC before I die, that'd be pretty rad

 

[FuneralCry]

Farewell and best wishes, I hope that you find the freedom you search for.

 

[lonegore]

I've read your summed-up story, and you're in absolutely right. Living really isn't free, it takes so much to make one life's an 'ideal' life.

See you on the other side, hopefully everything is going to work out well for you. Take care, I wish you well x

 

[CW36]

May peace be with you. One day this world will make this process painless for us all.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'm sorry life has brought you to this point and I have to agree with you. As the late great David Bowie sang: 'Life wasn't worth the balance, or the crumpled paper it was written on...' I also see no point in slaving away at a job I hate to sustain a life I don't want to live.

 

[90starve]

wishing you peaceful travels <3

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Have a peaceful journey and I hope you find peace! Farewell!

 

[not a person]

your reasoning about life makes perfect sense, beyond that i hope you will find your peace

 

[4skin4days]

Thanks for the well wishes! I'll be sure to tell the saints all about you guys. <3

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Absolutely love your reasoning.
Wishing you the best on your journey. May you find peace and love from this horrible world.

 

[Synrelia]

rest well, we'll miss you here

 

[locked*n*loaded]

May your suffering cease and peace be yours.

 

[ultrasharpy123456]

I'm gonna be real honest with you: you're better off going with full suspension hanging. I don't think there's a single person on this forum that got night night to work.

 

[day]

Wish you well on your journey friend. I hope you manage to finally find peace.

 

[ihatethisplanet]

Be at peace. What you wrote is so accurate and sums up this miserable place. I view life like this:

 

[Wyldfyre4948]

Best of luck on your journey. Hopefully you find the peace you deserve.

 

[love_peep]

I wish you the best and safe travels... I hope everything goes well

 

[XdragonsoulX]

Safe travels hope everything goes as planned