
Versailles
Enlightened
- Oct 1, 2020
- 1,647
I definitely feel trapped, in a kind of infinite circle that I still can't get out of, I'm trapped in this life, an existence that I don't want.
Today I fainted, as a result of fatigue and long hours of work, I hate this but at the same time I hate not being able to take a break because the criticisms of other people will begin, at what point do we start to romanticize labor exploitation? in a world where you can get what you want effortlessly. The system is quite unbearable for me and I do not find grace in it.
One of the things that I hate the most is that, I have wasted years of my life, not knowing how to use them, the truth does not bother me, but I cannot bear that this bothers others by making people point to me or judge me. Being alive is scary now.
Now I wonder why CTB is so difficult for me knowing that nothing will change in my life? Damn! If I had the guarantee that my life will end before the age of 30, I would be calmer, but it seems that time has no mercy and more and more I want to avoid a lot of suffering that I would not want to experience again.
Today I fainted, as a result of fatigue and long hours of work, I hate this but at the same time I hate not being able to take a break because the criticisms of other people will begin, at what point do we start to romanticize labor exploitation? in a world where you can get what you want effortlessly. The system is quite unbearable for me and I do not find grace in it.
One of the things that I hate the most is that, I have wasted years of my life, not knowing how to use them, the truth does not bother me, but I cannot bear that this bothers others by making people point to me or judge me. Being alive is scary now.
Now I wonder why CTB is so difficult for me knowing that nothing will change in my life? Damn! If I had the guarantee that my life will end before the age of 30, I would be calmer, but it seems that time has no mercy and more and more I want to avoid a lot of suffering that I would not want to experience again.