To people who do sh, what do you feel when you do it?

[Kazuu]

i just did it now and it doesnt hurt at all, it bleeds so much lol

 

[noonipie]

do you mean when i cut or when i want to (like before i do it)?

 

[Kazuu]

both?

 

[noonipie]

both?

before it's usually like really intense like either extremely sad or anxious or something. and immediately after or as im doing it it's like everything goes completely calm. and then it starts to sting. i dont usually do deep cuts because they kinda freak me out but i love watching the blood. im always able to cool down and make my mind go silent (almost literally) when i do it. what about you?

 

[Kazuu]

the same as you feel, except I kinda enjoy the pain haha... I hope you feel better...

 

[BringMeToLife]

It depends on the deph. I don't make very deep cuts, but I do it to the point where it hurts and the bleeding doesn't stop too quickly. I feel satisfied. It eases my mental pain a bit.

 

[noonipie]

the same as you feel, except I kinda enjoy the pain haha... I hope you feel better...

i like it too but sometimes afterwards if i did it too deep or too many of them its really painful like to the point where i cant sleep or anything.. then i dont like it so much

 

[cgrtt.brns]

before im usually either really pissed off at myself because of smthn i did or smthn that happened or im really panicky/overwhelmed and i dont know what to do so i just go straight to sh. while im cutting, depending on the type, its like this searing hot sting that spreads all over my body and makes me feel rly warm if im doing slow deep cuts, or if im frantically doing lots of small cuts in one area its like im tunnel visioned onto the area im cutting and as soon as i see the blood its like almost euphoric and i can breathe again and my mind stops racing. idky but a lot of times i cant help but start laughing? afterwards im just kinda annoyed like oh great another thing to hide from others every day. also waiting for it to stop bleeding once im back in reality again if it hasnt already stopped bleeding, fucking annoying.

 

[Valky]

At first great, then terrible. I felt like I had to go to more and more intense levels of cutting to reach the high I wanted to achieve. I needed to see more flesh, more blood, more scars. It really is an addiction. Yes it feels good at first but then I just crave more and more. I don't feel nothing when I cut. I feel the pain, I feel the stinging. I often had felt like I had to remind myself this way that something is seriously wrong and I am not just lazy.

Sometimes I was scared of myself and the capabilities I had in me. But it was even worse when I was not scared anymore.

 

[Pengu]

i just do it to relieve anxiety or sometimes i would get repetitive thoughts about cutting myself and i would try to resist a lot but because of ocd the thought doesn't leave me and only worsens my anxiety and then i can't function so i just do it... I don't feel anything honestly it just relieves my anxiety and then i go back to studying

At first great, then terrible. I felt like I had to go to more and more intense levels of cutting to reach the high I wanted to achieve. I needed to see more flesh, more blood, more scars. It really is an addiction. Yes it feels good at first but then I just crave more and more. I don't feel nothing when I cut. I feel the pain, I feel the stinging. I often had felt like I had to remind myself this way that something is seriously wrong and I am not just lazy.

Sometimes I was scared of myself and the capabilities I had in me. But it was even worse when I was not scared anymore.

ye same i don't feel anything either but i just crave for it T^T