Tired of trying

[lkjhgfdsa1]

I'm so tired of trying to CTB
Yesterday I had my final practice— it won't go wrong if I do it.

My final attempt was supposed to be at 10am today (in 15 minutes)
but now I can't get myself out of bed…

I know it will hurt and be scary
But the relief of dying is so great to me
Still…

 

[lost_ange2211]

I'm sorry to hear that. But I think you shouldn't pressure yourself to ctb. If your body says no right now then don't do it. Of course it could be just your SI kick in and make you feel that way but there is no need to do it when you feel that way. Do it when you feel ready for it.

 

[lkjhgfdsa1]

10am mark has passed
why??
can my misery end
Suddenly it's 1 hour later again

 

[Unknown21]

10am mark has passed
why??
can my misery end
Suddenly it's 1 hour later again

I think hanging is very difficult for you, I suggest waiting for SN

 

[no_tomorrow]

You need to take a couple weeks off and then re-evaluate. I have seen your activity on here the past week, you are not ready, you need to reboot and come back for it later