TIRED OF MAKING BAD DECISIONS

[StarryStarry]

I think I've figured out what my main problem is (besides depression). I am searching so hard for someone to care if I live or die that I am making horrible decisions. I should have ctb a long time ago. I didn't because I wanted there to be hope, I wanted there to be a sliver of normalcy in my life. I wanted someone to ask if I was okay. I know now that will never happen. I am alone - no one cares if I live or die and I have to face that fact. The people who cared about me are gone. I've been in pain for so long I don't know how not to be in pain. I relocated like an idiot. I should have died where I was but I was hoping this would work out. It will never work out for me. Now my Sweet pea is so traumatized from the long drive she won't come out from under the bed. She won't let me pet her or love on her. My one hope is so traumatized by me. Why did I do that to her? I love her so much. The only positive thing now is I am only 9 hours from where my little girl is.f Less than a day's drive. I wish so hard I could just die in my sleep, but that would be too easy for me. I hate my life, I hate breathing. Nothing will ever change.

 

[som1]

Being all alone is truly horrible. the desire to matter to someone will only hurt us cause we know that will never happen but we can only hope.

 

[WadeingThru]

I think I've figured out what my main problem is (besides depression). I am searching so hard for someone to care if I live or die that I am making horrible decisions. I should have ctb a long time ago. I didn't because I wanted there to be hope, I wanted there to be a sliver of normalcy in my life. I wanted someone to ask if I was okay. I know now that will never happen. I am alone - no one cares if I live or die and I have to face that fact. The people who cared about me are gone. I've been in pain for so long I don't know how not to be in pain. I relocated like an idiot. I should have died where I was but I was hoping this would work out. It will never work out for me. Now my Sweet pea is so traumatized from the long drive she won't come out from under the bed. She won't let me pet her or love on her. My one hope is so traumatized by me. Why did I do that to her? I love her so much. The only positive thing now is I am only 9 hours from where my little girl is.f Less than a day's drive. I wish so hard I could just die in my sleep, but that would be too easy for me. I hate my life, I hate breathing. Nothing will ever change.

Cats be like that. Give her sometime and she will go back to being normal. That is a natural reaction for cats that are in a unfamiliar place.

 

[StarryStarry]

Cats be like that. Give her sometime and she will go back to being normal. That is a natural reaction for cats that are in a unfamiliar place.

Thank you for helping me. I appreciate it.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you are suffering, I can imagine that it must be unbearable being in so much pain. I also wish to die in my sleep, all I want is to peacefully pass away. I wish it was that easy to leave this world. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[whatevs]

Loneliness is the most common form of torture. ;(

 

[SoVeryDone]

I am sorry you are in pain. When I moved with my cat she hid away under a large piece of furniture. I did not know where she was for over a day. I thought she escaped and panicked. She ended up showing up a few days later after a million cans were opened, food bags shook, etc.
I only ever found out her hiding spot months later when there was a kerfuffle and I went to the same room as she did!
Your kitty will come around if you give her time and don't try to force her out. She wants to feel like she has control right now. Give her time and free space with food and litter box. She loves you!
Good luck and I'm glad you are closer to your girl. May you find some happiness in your situation.

 

[4mom]

I think I've figured out what my main problem is (besides depression). I am searching so hard for someone to care if I live or die that I am making horrible decisions. I should have ctb a long time ago. I didn't because I wanted there to be hope, I wanted there to be a sliver of normalcy in my life. I wanted someone to ask if I was okay. I know now that will never happen. I am alone - no one cares if I live or die and I have to face that fact. The people who cared about me are gone. I've been in pain for so long I don't know how not to be in pain. I relocated like an idiot. I should have died where I was but I was hoping this would work out. It will never work out for me. Now my Sweet pea is so traumatized from the long drive she won't come out from under the bed. She won't let me pet her or love on her. My one hope is so traumatized by me. Why did I do that to her? I love her so much. The only positive thing now is I am only 9 hours from where my little girl is.f Less than a day's drive. I wish so hard I could just die in my sleep, but that would be too easy for me. I hate my life, I hate breathing. Nothing will ever change.

You have a beautiful heart. I am moved by your compassion and worry for everyone but yourself. I understand this. Put a little tuna out in the main living space and kitty will come around. Spoil yourself too. You are thinking of your daughter and your cat before yourself. Have a glass of wine after you set the tuna out.

 

[anxious_depressive]

Cats are afraid of moving/changing the situation.
I think she'll be fine in a couple of days.
Give her a bowl of water and put her favorite food/treats.

I am by no means an expert on cats.)))
This is an experience of communicating with my pet.
Loneliness is really not easy.
It hurts.
You are also tired after moving.
Take care of yourself , too .
Get some rest.

Hugs.

 

[NSA]

Can confirm what everyone else said: I've had many many cats over the years. She'll come out when she gets hungry enough. Just give her some space.