Venting tired of everyday

[kelimackie]

I'm just so tired, everything is so annoying, I hate eating, play videogames, watch shows, dance, even kissing and having sex is a nuisance.

I think I'm ready to go, I have nothing else to do, I'm just so fucking angry that I'll disappoint my family with this shit, but FUCKING HELL.

I can't do this shit for 60 years or more. My asthma is getting worse, my passions are dying. I'M DYING ALREADY.

I hope my family will understand some day, I hope they realize there was nothing they could do, I didn't want to be saved, and that I was the one in control of my life, so the decision to live or die can only be made by me.

 

[FuneralCry]

To me existing certainly is so futile and dreadful, I understand why you'd feel so tired of it all. The thought of suffering for 60 more years really is so incredibly horrifying to me so I hope that you find the freedom you search for.

 

[WAITING TO DIE]

I know the feeling.
I honestly feel so dead inside that I have no interest in anything anymore.
I can't take pleasure in anything. I feel nothing.
I'm content with the thought of dying soon.
I hope you can escape this hell in the near future too.

 

[kelimackie]

thank you for your messages, my SN is on the post office right now, it's just a matter of courage at this point