Tired of being a repressing tranny

[Esephawa7]

I Have had gender dysphoria for over half my life and it has gotten worse gradually. No, I do not watch porn and I swear I will scream the next time someone asks me this question in relation to dysphoria. I am on a high dose of antidepressant. I have a therapist. I have gone to the gym. I have tried "accepting my masculinity".

Dysphoria is such a humiliating disease of the brain, to the point where I am unsure how exactly to describe it. I have had a suicidal thought at least once a day every day for years now, all because I will never be a woman. I have a disgusting gorilla physique.

I have considered repressing and even tried it out but it doesnt go away. that said, I do not want to transition because my dysphoria isnt just reliant on abstract social ideals of gender. I am dysphoric because i was born a male and no matter what I do to my body I will always bear the scars of malehood.

 

[sadbh—itstimetogo🤎]

I'm sorry

 

[CrawlingInMySkin]

hey, mate! I noticed you're new… welcome to the forum, our little pocket of kindness and understanding in a cruel world for us miserable people. you'll find an incredible community here. I'm sorry you feel like this, truly. I can't relate perfectly, but a trapped and repressed feeling is one I'm familiar with. you're not alone in that, at least. I'm incredibly sorry I can't help much more, my friend. if there's anything more I can do please let me know, I'm sorry I can't relate. wishing you love and peace, mate

 

[eremita]

I Have had gender dysphoria for over half my life and it has gotten worse gradually. No, I do not watch porn and I swear I will scream the next time someone asks me this question in relation to dysphoria. I am on a high dose of antidepressant. I have a therapist. I have gone to the gym. I have tried "accepting my masculinity".

Dysphoria is such a humiliating disease of the brain, to the point where I am unsure how exactly to describe it. I have had a suicidal thought at least once a day every day for years now, all because I will never be a woman. I have a disgusting gorilla physique.

I have considered repressing and even tried it out but it doesnt go away. that said, I do not want to transition because my dysphoria isnt just reliant on abstract social ideals of gender. I am dysphoric because i was born a male and no matter what I do to my body I will always bear the scars of malehood.

this is exactly where I am, I can't bring myself to refer to myself as a man but I am far too grotesque to actually refer to myself as a woman, as much as transitioning actually can do I would still be raised as male. I understand how you feel and it's painful.

 

[cx31993]

I am pansexual and I think humans can be more than their biological gender, just beautiful beings with whatever traits they have
I hope you will be able to find a way to use what you have in a way you like