I listen to 'positive' suicide songs, read 'positive' death poems and nihilistic literatures. It will keep the good side imagination of death in my mind; However much lies I tell myself because we truly will never know what death is, the mind doesn't make the pain go away but it makes me feel ready to embrace the glory of death.
Well, actually the diazepam knocked me off, I didn't felt anything significant in an instance after drinking.
I have this idea of professional hypnosis but never tried it.
what songs are you talking about? i am a music aficionado, please tell me your favourit ctb songs! i have a whole playlist for this stuff, my favourite right now is 'blackout' by 'chvse'
I just meant for general physical pain. Apparently aerobic exercise helps....yeah, like I'm actually going to do that. I'm starting to do kind of CBT on myself- just reminding myself that the pain will be shortlived compared to my miserable life. Things like that. I know it sounds bad but I kinda hope this place pushes me over the edge. I don't want to live. I just don't want to have to go through with killing myself. I'm so frustrated with myself. Some people aren't afraid of the pain at all. They're afraid of death. I'm the other way. Death doesn't really scare me. I'm going to keep trying to be okay with the pain because I can't go on like this. Let me know how I can get round it.x
Drinking what sorry? Diazapam doesn't do quite that much for me regarding as fas as knocking me out but it may help.x
for general pain breathing really is your friend! try to relax all of your muscles, just everything while you've exhaled. do that for 5-10 minutes and youll feel like another person.
the hard thing about this for me is to see a point in doing it.. just for the physiology..
its like eating healthy.. why should i do it if i just want to ctb.. also you reach more of a contemplative state of mind, where youre just more conscious of your problems..
i hate life there is no solution god damn it.. just ctb, it aint easy anyway i guess
what kind of pain do you try to withstand?