venua
ven *
- Jul 1, 2023
- 61
As the title suggests. i have been in active for a very long time now and recently have been overcome with suicidal mind. a lot has happened. i still want to kill myself and think about it now more than ever, just breathing as i type drives me insane. im in a world of hurt, and i feel as though nobody really gets it. i had my own place for a while but had to move back in with my parents due to health problems and it has just gone to total shit. im reminded every day of why i moved out the second i could, the constant belittling and the wonderful remarks from both parents that i am; having a "psychotic break" because i became overwealmed with anger at their misunderstanding, that i must have some kind of split personality disorder due to my unstable moods, which i find rather ironic as just a few months prior to living with them again i had inquired about diagnosis of bpd and treatments. but, they are stubborn selfish people who should have never had children. my entire life i have felt shame and hatred.
