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Throwawayacc3

Throwawayacc3

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Mar 4, 2024
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"A NYC icon." Have you ever hung around New York City? It seeps negative energy. I used to hang around NYC in my late teens/early twenties when I had some years of reprieve from the urge to CTB, and every time I was in NYC I felt the overwhelming urge to CTB. The way that city makes you feel is hard to describe. It's pure despair. All the ugliness and devilishness of this Planet saturated in one place. I'm guessing Eva Evans woke up to that. Or just woke up to the fact that our Planet is a social media, AI driven Hellworld, being that she was a Tik-Toker.

I have a feeling she, like many of us, just WOKE UP to what this Planet really is. And I admire her for it. Full suspension hanging is most likely going to be my method too, and it's good to be reminded it's a reliable method. Congratulations, Eva Evans, on not being a chickenshit like me.
I'm from the UK but visited around the same ages as you twice. First time was with a family friend and their parents basically brought us everywhere - park, comedy clubs, outlet stores, etc. I did notice that at night I wasn't comfortable at all and rubbish was everywhere (this was about 16/17 years ago. Second time went on my own for my birthday - bronx zoo, saw Book of Mormon, sat in the hotel and just watched people outside, went to the museum, etc. It was ok but had even more sense of that dread at night. It's pretty much London but way way louder. Even after the bronx zoo - the area outside doesn't seem safe at all. I had to hang around the entrance until a taxi picked me up. So ironic considering all the families at the zoo but the surround area is super rough and not safe.

Cities in general are not safe and hell holes - London, New York, Barcelona, Madrid (these 4 I've experienced). It's spreading to areas around them though and isn't slowing down.
She wrote this on a mental health website.

Even in that picture - all the jewellery and excess but look at her eyes - seem completely dead. I'm the worst with facial expressions but because I like knowledge I read into things about dead eyes, pupil dilation, etc. I can't seem to do in person only with images/pictures.
 
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InHerPockets

InHerPockets

"blessed are the dead"
May 1, 2024
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I read that her boyfriend cheated on her recently, causing a break up. That kind of betrayal hurts. And you never know what is happening in someone's head. I hope with everything I have that she's found her peace. She had a hard childhood by the sounds of things.
 
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karmaisabitch

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Mar 25, 2024
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I read that her boyfriend cheated on her recently, causing a break up. That kind of betrayal hurts. And you never know what is happening in someone's head. I hope with everything I have that she's found her peace. She had a hard childhood by the sounds of things.
It does hurt! People get attached and separation can be very difficult to deal with but this is life she prob was just looking for a reason! I pray every minute to die! I'm struggling now you never know when it's my turn too I'm at the edge now
 

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