TikToker Eva Evans Found Hanging in Apartment, Left Suicide Note

[karmaisabitch]

she seemed happy, I wonder why she killed herself tho? She left a suicide note

 

[Helween]

yeah.. like you never know what's in someone else's head.

 

[Deleted member 65988]

yeah.. like you never know what's in someone else's head.

Yeah, it can look all good on the surface but you just never know even if the person has their life "sorted out".

 

[Jorms_McGander]

Yeah, it can look all good on the surface but you just never know even if the person has their life "sorted out".

Do you think it's done because the suffering don't want to trouble others with their problems?

 

[CTB Dream]

cuz life all wrng cncpt no mtr wat life alws posbl ctb

 

[Deleted member 65988]

Do you think it's done because the suffering don't want to trouble others with their problems?

That's one factor, also because they feel like no one would probably relate or provide support where they actually show they're understanding of their struggles instead of hearing the same old platitudes which I know are coming from a good place but, those words are clearly not enough anymore. I don't like telling anyone my problems, family included so maybe that's why.

Edit: it could also be the fear in trusting themselves enough to open up to those they care about with their problems, not necessarily that they feel like they'll burdening them.

 

[Jorms_McGander]

I also keep it to myself. It's something I wish to break out of before I CTB -- not to ask for help in not doing it but I just wanna be heard before I go

 

[Ernest1964]

I just covered this poem in my high school English class (I'm a teacher). The students had to write an essay analyzing the most important literary elements found in this poem. I got some pretty insightful responses.


Richard Cory
BY EDWIN ARLINGTON ROBINSON

Whenever Richard Cory went down town,
We people on the pavement looked at him:
He was a gentleman from sole to crown,
Clean favored, and imperially slim.

And he was always quietly arrayed,
And he was always human when he talked;
But still he fluttered pulses when he said,
"Good-morning," and he glittered when he walked.

And he was rich—yes, richer than a king—
And admirably schooled in every grace:
In fine, we thought that he was everything
To make us wish that we were in his place.

So on we worked, and waited for the light,
And went without the meat, and cursed the bread;
And Richard Cory, one calm summer night,
Went home and put a bullet through his head.

 

[CTB Dream]

@thealteredmind this put awfl yay

 

[UKscotty]

You never know if someone is suffering with depression or not.

 

[outrider567]

she seemed happy, I wonder why she killed herself tho? She left a suicide note

She had mental health issues, sources say

 

[Ash’Girl]

There was a case a couple years back when a former Miss USA jumped to her death (I think from her apartment), and another where a top model did similar.

Beauty, prestige, talent, money, seeming that the world is your oyster - these days so much is invested in what life looks like online to the masses. Social media is a crock of shit. I think it actually causes more people to feel like they're failures because of all the fake "perfection" online.

Being a teen and young adult before social media imploded and before everyone 5+ had smart phones and iPads was hard enough. I feel like it must be so much harder now. You never escape the court of public opinion and it's much more difficult to not compare yourself to others and feel lacking.

 

[karmaisabitch]

There was a case a couple years back when a former Miss USA jumped to her death (I think from her apartment), and another where a top model did similar.

Beauty, prestige, talent, money, seeming that the world is your oyster - these days so much is invested in what life looks like online to the masses. Social media is a crock of shit. I think it actually causes more people to feel like they're failures because of all the fake "perfection" online.

Being a teen and young adult before social media imploded and before everyone 5+ had smart phones and iPads was hard enough. I feel like it must be so much harder now. You never escape the court of public opinion and it's much more difficult to not compare yourself to others and feel lacking.

I remember who you are talking about and I agree with you! Like if someone sees me here looking for resources they will be in shock too it's because people can't see inside us and most of us carries pain

 

[astonishedturnip]

There was a case a couple years back when a former Miss USA jumped to her death (I think from her apartment), and another where a top model did similar.

Cheslie Kryst was absolutely terrified and bummed about turning 30, she publicly stated she worried her value would run out. She CTB at 30. Online image is so youth obsessed, toxic and stresses perfection, and for some people it's in their hands and ready to trigger them every waking minute of the day. While I wish everyone had the right to a safe and peaceful CTB, I wish she'd have gotten help and recovered. Not being 21 anymore is not the end of the world but there's an entire genre of TikTok videos ready to tell you otherwise. Life is fucked.

 

[tbroken]

Cheslie Kryst was absolutely terrified and bummed about turning 30, she publicly stated she worried her value would run out. She CTB at 30. Online image is so youth obsessed, toxic and stresses perfection, and for some people it's in their hands and ready to trigger them every waking minute of the day. While I wish everyone had the right to a safe and peaceful CTB, I wish she'd have gotten help and recovered. Not being 21 anymore is not the end of the world but there's an entire genre of TikTok videos ready to tell you otherwise. Life is fucked.

I think you touched the point. Even we that are not famous (idk maybe someone famous is hiding on this forum also, to learn how to use SN or N without being discovered) are afraid of aging, imagine if you put yourself under the spotlight and everyone is putting on you all these great expectations or constantly criticize you... you need to have strong guts... that's why i hate social media, i want to be able to win and loose without that serious impact.

 

[CTB Dream]

@Goku Black mod plz this ppl make fun rly awfl @FitsTime

 

[thealteredmind]

@thealteredmind this put awfl yay

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[Throwawayacc3]

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[tbroken]

@Goku Black mod plz this ppl make fun rly awfl @FitsTime

It's okay, i'll remove the reaction. Thought your post was sort of a joke

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we put yai reaction to her post.

 

[Throwawayacc3]

I think you touched the point. Even we that are not famous (idk maybe someone famous is hiding on this forum also, to learn how to use SN or N without being discovered) are afraid of aging, imagine if you put yourself under the spotlight and everyone is putting on you all these great expectations or constantly criticize you... you need to have strong guts... that's why i hate social media, i want to be able to win and loose without that serious impact.

It's depends on personality type. People who are extroverted, narcissistic love attention and fame. To me that's the worst thing imaginable. Even going to the sanctuary and stuff I do it for the animals and not to post online and get "clout" as they call it now. It's just how my past way with animals so it's my only gateway to it today.

Social media means everything has to be put online. And it must be positive or drive engagement. It's cancer and trust me… I had cancer lmao.

Edit: I've just read this and I realise it sounds too autistic and I'm going to have to ask them about dyslexia as well; ultimately what I'm saying is that social media isn't social at all - it's isolating. It's all fake and for show and it seems like it creates voids for anyone who engages with it.

 

[tbroken]

It's depends on personality type. People who are extroverted, narcissistic love attention and fame. To me that's the worst thing imaginable. Even going to the sanctuary and stuff I do it for the animals and not to post online and get "clout" as they call it now. It's just how my past way with animals so it's my only gateway to it today.

Social media means everything has to be put online. And it must be positive or drive engagement. It's cancer and trust me… I had cancer lmao.

Edit: I've just read this and I realise it sounds too autistic and I'm going to have to ask them about dyslexia as well; ultimately what I'm saying is that social media isn't social at all - it's isolating. It's all fake and for show and it seems like it creates voids for anyone who engages with it.

Exactly!!! It's all fake also! You will never post something bad on social media! It is disgusting. They became all doctors, models, animalists and pure-souls!

 

[Throwawayacc3]

Exactly!!! It's all fake also! You will never post something bad on social media! It is disgusting. They became all doctors, models, animalists and pure-souls!

When I say fake. I mean in the sense that the motive for making "content" or a post isn't exactly as genuine as it seems. If a page is for an animal sanctuary then yes you'd expect that kind of content maybe for donations or volunteers or to help, etc. however most account tend to be individuals or couples or a group of people and this is where it gets tricky especially when money and sponsors get mixed in.
Because doctors is linked with animal stuff I do get videos on my YT feed and it is doctors who have quit and do YT only now because of the money and extra time.

 

[tbroken]

When I say fake. I mean in the sense that the motive for making "content" or a post isn't exactly as genuine as it seems. If a page is for an animal sanctuary then yes you'd expect that kind of content maybe for donations or volunteers or to help, etc. however most account tend to be individuals or couples or a group of people and this is where it gets tricky especially when money and sponsors get mixed in.
Because doctors is linked with animal stuff I do get videos on my YT feed and it is doctors who have quit and do YT only now because of the money and extra time.

Yes it can be, there are still passionate ppl out there.
But i don't know if it is my CPTSD or what, but i don't trust most of the digital content however. Youtubers are paid to make propaganda(and not only by sponsors/donators) and it is not a trustable platform anymore. Personally i search only for guides or really relevant news, like natural disasters or ter*****c attacks and similar.

 

[astr4]

There's something really validating and bittersweet about people who seemingly live happy lives who end up ctb. Like, I was right, it doesn't matter how much money or how many friends I have, life is miserable, and suicidal folks are the only ones that see it the way it really is. Everyone who says that you can get a partner make friends get a new job etc etc as though changing those things will magically make you happy are just delusional imo.

 

[juna]

The saddest people are the ones who laugh the most. Sorry for her.

 

[wiinterfrost]

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you reacted with the "yay" reaction to Dream's comment, and the yay reaction often represents laughing. there was nothing in Dream's comment that was funny. and if you looked right at the "descriptor" or how it's called - the words under the profile picture - she specifically states "Disabled. Hard talk, don't argue, make fun, etc"; and with the yay reaction you could be perceived as making fun of her post.

does that answer your question mark?

 

[Illegal Preclear]

"A NYC icon." Have you ever hung around New York City? It seeps negative energy. I used to hang around NYC in my late teens/early twenties when I had some years of reprieve from the urge to CTB, and every time I was in NYC I felt the overwhelming urge to CTB. The way that city makes you feel is hard to describe. It's pure despair. All the ugliness and devilishness of this Planet saturated in one place. I'm guessing Eva Evans woke up to that. Or just woke up to the fact that our Planet is a social media, AI driven Hellworld, being that she was a Tik-Toker.

I have a feeling she, like many of us, just WOKE UP to what this Planet really is. And I admire her for it. Full suspension hanging is most likely going to be my method too, and it's good to be reminded it's a reliable method. Congratulations, Eva Evans, on not being a chickenshit like me.

 

[thealteredmind]

you reacted with the "yay" reaction to Dream's comment, and the yay reaction often represents laughing. there was nothing in Dream's comment that was funny. and if you looked right at the "descriptor" or how it's called - the words under the profile picture - she specifically states "Disabled. Hard talk, don't argue, make fun, etc"; and with the yay reaction you could be perceived as making fun of her post.

does that answer your question mark?

I don't even remember why I put "yay". anyways... if it affects her I removed it, but nah, wasn't making fun of her, I'm not a shitbag.

oh wait I do remember. I read the comment and I was "...what? I don't understand any of it haha"

 

[Guy Smiley]

She wrote this on a mental health website.

Eva Evans — Dont MIND Me

www.dontmindme.org

 

[rozeske]

She wrote this on a mental health website.

Eva Evans — Dont MIND Me

www.dontmindme.org

It makes you wonder if people with mental health issues should even have kids in the first place or if they even are capable of giving them a healthy childhood.