GongLiFang
Certified Stupid
- Aug 11, 2021
- 77
So, I think there will be others that will relate to this but, I have had zero romantic or sexual experiences in my life.
I was raised thinking that someday I would find a good long term relationship, and due to circumstances that wasn't able to happen and at this point it obviously isn't feasible because well, I am in this headspace and need to die soon. I know for some people these things aren't really important so it wouldn't be that much of a concern but I can't help but wonder if maybe I have missed out on at least a few interesting experiences. I sometimes wonder what it would be like to share intimate moments with someone I trust or even just go on a date knowing that person is genuinely interested in me. What is it like to feel emotionally and physically close to someone? Would I have liked it as much as I might think I would? How long could I make a relationship last? What is it like to really live with someone? Is love and sex actually that great or are people just hyping it up? Does being in a relationship actually help with long term happiness given it is healthy?
I don't know man, I have very few regrets in life but this has to be one of the few. I kind of wish before I became a shut in that I at least tried a relationship once or twice just to have made my own opinions on it. But instead I will just have to make piece with the fact I only interact with these things through stories and art. Either way once I am dead I won't really be able to think about it. But sometimes it makes me think "maybe I can just live a little longer and see what it is all about???" but then I remember my life situation plus all the other garbage in this world and accept my fate.
I was raised thinking that someday I would find a good long term relationship, and due to circumstances that wasn't able to happen and at this point it obviously isn't feasible because well, I am in this headspace and need to die soon. I know for some people these things aren't really important so it wouldn't be that much of a concern but I can't help but wonder if maybe I have missed out on at least a few interesting experiences. I sometimes wonder what it would be like to share intimate moments with someone I trust or even just go on a date knowing that person is genuinely interested in me. What is it like to feel emotionally and physically close to someone? Would I have liked it as much as I might think I would? How long could I make a relationship last? What is it like to really live with someone? Is love and sex actually that great or are people just hyping it up? Does being in a relationship actually help with long term happiness given it is healthy?
I don't know man, I have very few regrets in life but this has to be one of the few. I kind of wish before I became a shut in that I at least tried a relationship once or twice just to have made my own opinions on it. But instead I will just have to make piece with the fact I only interact with these things through stories and art. Either way once I am dead I won't really be able to think about it. But sometimes it makes me think "maybe I can just live a little longer and see what it is all about???" but then I remember my life situation plus all the other garbage in this world and accept my fate.