Story Thoughts at work

[Yuki K]

Today at my company I was asked " Where or what do I see myself doing in 10 years?". I was baffled by the question. Still, I kept a straight face and answered professionally (and I also got my promotion so haha) But it got me thinking about my past. Specifically 10 years in the past when I was around 15 and I remember that day as if it was yesterday. I had my 10th grade national exams (an exam that everyone in the country has the give so basically a very big exam) and that day was math exam and for god's sake I couldn't do trigonometry. Like I was horribly pathetic at it, to the point that I'd start crying when I saw a trig sum. I had a huge fear of math (dunno if that's a thing but i had like a math-phobia) I couldn't do anything. And I was stressing out as crazy. And I was suicidal back then as well. I didn't score good grades even though my parents never really heavily scolded me about my marks but I could feel that they were disappointed with me. They even lowered their expectations from me. and I just wanted to die, I even tried ctb. That was my first attempt almost a decade ago. I heard my parents talking about me behind my back on how incompetent I was. That's how I was 10 years ago and I'm still the same. I haven't changed. I haven't been able to make my parents happy and proud yet. I'm still working on that

 

[Lost in a Dream]

I'm sorry your parents talked about you behind your back like that. A person's value shouldn't be determined by a letter grade on a sheet of paper. Bad grades was one of the reasons I was constantly being screamed at as a kid, and it should never have been a justification for it. Hopefully you can see yourself doing something or being somewhere that makes you proud of yourself, because that is what matters the most.

Maybe you're like me and see yourself as a skeleton in a casket, but hopefully you have a chance of doing something less boring in the next 10 years than that. There's got to be good luck for some of us, right?

 

[Yuki K]

I'm sorry your parents talked about you behind your back like that. A person's value shouldn't be determined by a letter grade on a sheet of paper. Bad grades was one of the reasons I was constantly being screamed at as a kid, and it should never have been a justification for it. Hopefully you can see yourself doing something or being somewhere that makes you proud of yourself, because that is what matters the most.

Maybe you're like me and see yourself as a skeleton in a casket, but hopefully you have a chance of doing something less boring in the next 10 years than that. There's got to be good luck for some of us, right?

I understand how painful and hurtful it must have felt to get screamed at by your parents. I don't have any hope for myself anymore, I'll just have to free myself from this world and it's harsh reality, but I wish you good luck

 

[AllMyDreams]

Today at my company I was asked " Where or what do I see myself doing in 10 years?". I was baffled by the question. Still, I kept a straight face and answered professionally (and I also got my promotion so haha) But it got me thinking about my past. Specifically 10 years in the past when I was around 15 and I remember that day as if it was yesterday. I had my 10th grade national exams (an exam that everyone in the country has the give so basically a very big exam) and that day was math exam and for god's sake I couldn't do trigonometry. Like I was horribly pathetic at it, to the point that I'd start crying when I saw a trig sum. I had a huge fear of math (dunno if that's a thing but i had like a math-phobia) I couldn't do anything. And I was stressing out as crazy. And I was suicidal back then as well. I didn't score good grades even though my parents never really heavily scolded me about my marks but I could feel that they were disappointed with me. They even lowered their expectations from me. and I just wanted to die, I even tried ctb. That was my first attempt almost a decade ago. I heard my parents talking about me behind my back on how incompetent I was. That's how I was 10 years ago and I'm still the same. I haven't changed. I haven't been able to make my parents happy and proud yet. I'm still working on that

I've always had near-perfect grades (high school and university) and I had a well-paying job that my parents were proud of me for. I was/often am still miserable. I know of plenty of people with 'bad' grades or 'underwhelming' jobs that are happy. Don't let that define you. Just try to find what you enjoy and stick with it, and success will come.