This week was a downward spiral.

[CravingPeace]

I feel like I had a manic episode. I impulsively took the benzos I got this week, all of them. I called out sick Tuesday and continued. Then I broke into an unused hydrocodone bottle and practically took them all Tuesday, couldn't call out a second time and showed up looking groggy as hell, told supervisor I was out because of a panic attack.

All this having been "sober" from alcohol and weed for 6 months.

I literally have never done any of those things. And I overspent and bought lottery tickets and everything. Now I'm laying in bed "coming to" and I'm terrified.

Thank god I have therapy tomorrow..

 

[Aprilwithcake]

Just been one of those weeks lmao idk spring is always so depressing to me