
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
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Dying should be peaceful and straightforward instead of something that needs to be researched on the internet. If we could all get euthanasia then there would be no need for this website, instead we could just go and we would never need to think about suicide again. People should be able to be open about wanting to die, and suicide should be respected and accepted everywhere, and there would never be a need to post about it on the internet ever. In this life posting and talking about suicide achieves nothing anyway, it only just prolongs and draws attention to our suffering. Sharing how you feel will often mean you just get invalidated in some way as others can never really understand as they are not living your life. As long as we live, we cannot escape from suffering.
I just think that on here it's a bad combination having desperate suffering people trying to find ways out and all the troll like nonsense you see on the rest of the internet, this place is no different really from anywhere else, it feels pointless, nowhere is free from cruel people, this is not really a 'safe space', people joke about suicide treating it with disrespect with the laugh reacts and people get laugh reactions for saying that suicide is difficult for them, and there are even pro lifers on here. This website is just complicated suicide information and is completely useless with no working search function. We have already suffered enough so we shouldn't have to suffer in trying to find ways to leave on a website. People even post invalidating things like hanging is simple, suicide is easy when that does not reflect the reality. I don't want to think about methods again, it's just so horrifying how we have to think about how methods could fail.
There really is nowhere in life that offers relief, there is no comfort in anything, everything is so empty. I wish that we lived in a world where euthanasia is available, where nobody gets their suffering dismissed and their suffering is seen as real. That would be the ideal way to die, to finally be free from this struggle and for everything that is wrong with life to be finally gone. To die and never have to deal with any of this again would be the best thing possible.
I just think that on here it's a bad combination having desperate suffering people trying to find ways out and all the troll like nonsense you see on the rest of the internet, this place is no different really from anywhere else, it feels pointless, nowhere is free from cruel people, this is not really a 'safe space', people joke about suicide treating it with disrespect with the laugh reacts and people get laugh reactions for saying that suicide is difficult for them, and there are even pro lifers on here. This website is just complicated suicide information and is completely useless with no working search function. We have already suffered enough so we shouldn't have to suffer in trying to find ways to leave on a website. People even post invalidating things like hanging is simple, suicide is easy when that does not reflect the reality. I don't want to think about methods again, it's just so horrifying how we have to think about how methods could fail.
There really is nowhere in life that offers relief, there is no comfort in anything, everything is so empty. I wish that we lived in a world where euthanasia is available, where nobody gets their suffering dismissed and their suffering is seen as real. That would be the ideal way to die, to finally be free from this struggle and for everything that is wrong with life to be finally gone. To die and never have to deal with any of this again would be the best thing possible.