Of course we all have our problems and some of us come from very difficult past, we simply can't forget. Talking to friends is pointless, they had me committed for a 72 hr hold, so I could never share anything with them again, actually I've cut them all off! I can't understand why we have to feel ashamed because we simply want to exit this life and exhausted with this mental torment we are in and some gave physical pain too. I wish the laws were different and we can simply say we are ready to go, have an evaluation and the Dr say, it's OK let's plan a date. Instead I feel like I'm just waiting for my bus to come, I'm so tired of being here! All my attempts have failed and I'm scared to try again because I'll probaly fail and forced on another hold or stuck on a ventilator with my luck. I wish there were a better way, we shouldn't have to suffer everyday. I just needed to vent, waiting for my sleeping pills to kick in and knock me out, I'm over it!
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
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I understand feeling so tired of suffering in this existence, to me it's extreme cruelty how we cannot just have the option to reliably die in peace, I find it so horrible how there is no acceptance towards suicide even know there is literally no limit as to how much one can suffer as long as they exist. But anyway best wishes, it's so hellish how people even have to fear trying to die going wrong in the first place, I really wish there's the option to just fall into an dreamless, eternal sleep.
Yeah I feel this is the only place I can truly vent about how I feel, because a lot of us can relate
If the cashier asks me how are you today? I am not going to reply I want to jump off a bridge because that might freak them out
But on here I can express how I feel because its filled with nice people who are not judgemental
If the cashier asks me how are you today? I am not going to reply I want to jump off a bridge because that might freak them out
But on here I can express how I feel because its filled with nice people who are not judgemental
That cashier would secretly want to ask, "what bridge?" LOL. You would be shocked how many people feel like us but ashamed or embarrassed to express how they really feel. A few of my colleagues feel safe and driven to e press themselves to me and I would have never imagined! My screen savor is usury the suicide survivors/ awareness symbol and those who knows feel open to speak about it. I'm just glad I can be a listening ear to some.
