AngelTears
Last Days
- Jun 10, 2023
- 63
Fml. Everytime I feel I've hit rock bottom I see bellow and it's still all dark. When will I reach the end?? F*ck. I wonder if anybody will actually care when I'm gone... I remember once I OD'd and woke up 10hrs later, my door still closed. Nobody had even came up to check on me. I am completely convinced that it's either the because of the smell of my decaying flesh or pure luck that I'll be found. I hate myself so much. I hate myself for caring. I hate myself for failing. I hate myself for hating myself. I hope I one day have the courage to leave all of this behind and just be happy.... If not, then I hope I just have enough courage to pull the trigger when the time comes and just hope someone remembers me... Why do I care so much about being remembered? F*ck.
