brainlessretard
i wish i could erase only the memories i hate
- Dec 19, 2021
- 6
my boyfriend is seeing another girl. she's really pretty. i've never talked to her, but she looks like a nice person. a good person, so not like me.
i opened the relationship so he could be happy, but to be honest, this is further proof that i am unlovable. i'm good for rape, that's all. everyone always makes it so clear. the only guy who was ever truly obsessed with my existence was someone who only thought of me as something good to fuck. i hope he rots in hell. (not my bf, this other guy was my stalker.)
my bf said he doesn't want me to stay at his house tomorrow and that i should leave after lunch. he said he wants some time alone to play with his friend, but i'm sure he's going to see her. or talk to her. and maybe play with her. who knows what else? i don't know.
i love him. i hope he forgives me once i die. all i need is the money for SN, and luckily, it isn't expensive. even if i'm unemployed, it can be achieved.
i opened the relationship so he could be happy, but to be honest, this is further proof that i am unlovable. i'm good for rape, that's all. everyone always makes it so clear. the only guy who was ever truly obsessed with my existence was someone who only thought of me as something good to fuck. i hope he rots in hell. (not my bf, this other guy was my stalker.)
my bf said he doesn't want me to stay at his house tomorrow and that i should leave after lunch. he said he wants some time alone to play with his friend, but i'm sure he's going to see her. or talk to her. and maybe play with her. who knows what else? i don't know.
i love him. i hope he forgives me once i die. all i need is the money for SN, and luckily, it isn't expensive. even if i'm unemployed, it can be achieved.
